...my writing? I don't mean that my technical skills are gone, because I certainly still know how to write. But I haven't felt like it in such a long time. I used to enjoy writing so much, both creative writing and just talking about my day and my thoughts. It is not for a lack of things to talk about, as many interesting things have happened ( Read more... )

All sorts of big things have happened in life, and here I am writing about the little things instead. Despite the changes, the battle with depression, the new house, job stuff, new friends, all that, I am here stuck on my impatience with a situation. How exciting and nerve-wracking it can be to really care about someone's opinion of you, to give ( Read more... )

1. Things are still kind of awkward with my mom. I haven't been home since the graduation incident. I know she really wants me to go stay there for a whole weekend, and maybe it's selfish and immature of me, but I'm just not comfortable with that right now. So I've still been talking to her through email and the phone, but not about anything ( Read more... )

Well, I'm all graduated from college now. I'm happy to have made it, and I'm happy for all the friends I have who graduated too. I've had some great support and love. It's a time to feel proud and accomplished, which I am ( Read more... )

I've been neglecting to write in here lately. Just busy ( Read more... )

Dustin's father was hospitalized on Monday for pneumonia. Today the doctor wants to transfer him to hospice care and Dustin is responsible for signing the papers to approve it. He's also now responsible for going to tell his little sister that their dad has cancer and really is dying of it. There's a lot of other people he needs to contact too, ( Read more... )

Just some musings that aren't all that original for anyone who's been in a situation like this, and sooner or later that's almost everybody. I just wanted to write out the thoughts anyway ( Read more... )

Must stop being so paranoid. Must stop worrying so much about so many little things, especially ones out of my control. Must stop being so insecure.

I've always been so very bad at this self-confidence, self-esteem, self-love thing.

Things are better, and the future is looking bright. There's still a lot of work to get there, but there are some amazing and happy things to look forward to on the way. I've got a lot of problems to still sort out, more growing up to do (I've unfortunately been reacting to circumstances lately in a pretty immature and defensive way, and I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm discovering the limits to my patience. I'm not so good at waiting as I thought I was. It seems like the good is always just a couple of weeks away, and while the days are passing quickly enough, there's still weeks left to go as everything keeps getting pushed back just a little bit. It's an uncomfortable situation and it's making me so ( Read more... )