Just a little venting
I'm discovering the limits to my patience. I'm not so good at waiting as I thought I was. It seems like the good is always just a couple of weeks away, and while the days are passing quickly enough, there's still weeks left to go as everything keeps getting pushed back just a little bit. It's an uncomfortable situation and it's making me so irritable. I'm too quick to snap at people. Not to mention the tears this weekend every time I had to come home at night. I'm just so eager to start the next part of my life and being stuck in this limbo, feeling trapped and with the situation currently out of my own control, is just something I'm not able to cope with well.
Things will clear up a lot in October, though I'm hoping sooner than that. Of course if it doesn't happen by the first week of October, I'm probably going to really snap and I don't want that to happen, because I don't want to say or do anything I'm going to regret. On the other hand, I'm not sure it's any worse than this current build-up of resentment.
I'm just feeling very self-centered lately. I know what will make me happy, I want it, I see how I can have it, and the road blocks and complications are making me into a nasty mess of selfish emotions. Not good, but I'm too frustrated to really feel ashamed of it.
Things will clear up a lot in October, though I'm hoping sooner than that. Of course if it doesn't happen by the first week of October, I'm probably going to really snap and I don't want that to happen, because I don't want to say or do anything I'm going to regret. On the other hand, I'm not sure it's any worse than this current build-up of resentment.
I'm just feeling very self-centered lately. I know what will make me happy, I want it, I see how I can have it, and the road blocks and complications are making me into a nasty mess of selfish emotions. Not good, but I'm too frustrated to really feel ashamed of it.