If ....

[mary_jane_025]

Title: If....
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong
Genre: Romance, angst
Warning: Sexual content
Length: One-shot
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jaejoong thinks back on his life wondering which exact moment would have spared him from the heartache.
Beta: shupashta - thank you so much sweetie! You have no idea how much I appreciate your help!
A/N: Written for the un_scribbled community's If

Comments

[snow_meow]

Some many ifs.
However, sometimes life just moves along pass all those ifs if one wants to have happiness.

If none of these things happen, Jaejoong would have not experience being in love and loved by Jung Yunho. No two loves are the same.

[mary_jane_025]

I think that's the conclusion he comes to in both endings. And it was definitely what I was trying to convey, so I'm happy you understood it that way
Thank you for reading and commenting <3

[lola_xoxo92]

This was BEAUTIFUL! You literally took my breath away. Bravo. Bravo.

[mary_jane_025]

Thank you!!! *blushes* You're too kind <3

[lola_xoxo92]

I found out about this story days ago. Thank you for your translation. This is superb. Thanks!!!

[mary_jane_025]

I'm not sure I understand what you mean, since this is not a translation but my own work?

[lola_xoxo92]

I'm sorry. My LJ app made an error. This was for another entry. ^^

[mary_jane_025]

Ahh okay no problem! ;) I was confused there for a moment ;b

[countingcr0ws]

omg. i cried. i couldn't help but cry. it's like it was so good. it was perfect. it just reminded me of kiss shita mama sayonara. like you heard the melody before some days back, or maybe a year ago, and you couldn't remember, and try as you might you just can't place it. it's like when it begun, i just felt like it was so familiar. maybe it was a distant thought process as i griped about the past, and my mistakes. but oh, i loved it. i just don't know. it was so good. like it was so raw, and like i've never read something that employed such a unique way of relating a story

[mary_jane_025]

o.o wow. I don't even know where to start!!! This has got to be one of the best comments I've ever received *blushes* I didn't mean to make you cry even if it's a very very sad story. I found it sad too...

I think I was kind of on a subconcious level inspired by the Butterfly Effect, which is kind of the same thing and then not really at all, but they have this thing with changing one little thing in your past and your entire future is different. I think it might be familiar though, because the path Jaejoong is thinking on is one that everyone would do? I think? If that makes sense? I mean I usually do that just a little in my head. Like "oh if I had just left the house one second earlier" or something like that....

And yeah, Yunho had to be broken before Jaejoong realised he could say he loved him.

*pats back* Don't cry sweetie! Thank you so much for this wonderful comment. You have no idea how happy you made me - not that your tears made me happy <3 thank you so much <3

[countingcr0ws]

no, no. goodness. i find it so good when i actually make people cry through my words. like i find it so amazing. it makes me happy, even. like people go about in their daily lives all composed, and then there they go, falling into your innocuous link on detox or something, and they end up falling apart. it makes me feel so good. like you moved them/ made them sad with your mere words, like it's kinda a fictitious story that isn't something messing with their lives directly, as it the sting isn't in their lives, but they're moved/ messed up enough to start bawling. oh, that's so good. like when i cry really badly over something and i tell my friend about what i did, i'd describe it like 'it was completely like a personal attack.' like it was a personal issue, like my pet dog died, my results sucks soo bad, i lost my phone kind of personal attack bad. do i make sense? so, please do. please lavish in the fact that you made me cry. because it's so good. if i could (but i can't), i'd spend time trying to craft something that'd even squeeze

[countingcr0ws]

oh man. i wrote a longer reply than you! i tend to do that. hahaha. i tend to go off tangent and go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on so often. and just so you know, i typed that whole on and on and on and on individually. i didn't copy paste them. haha. irrelevant. mannnn.

[tanya_h24]

“I love you.” If only he had learned how to say this before it was too late. If only
things were different.
i find it's difficult to express my feelings so this. this line really got me ;___________;

thanks for sharing this! gonna mem it <3

[mary_jane_025]

*huggles and hands over tissues* Yeah... That's how it is for many people!

Thank you for reading and commenting, and mem'ing it! ;) <3