If ....

[mary_jane_025]

Title: If....
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong
Genre: Romance, angst
Warning: Sexual content
Length: One-shot
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jaejoong thinks back on his life wondering which exact moment would have spared him from the heartache.
Beta: shupashta - thank you so much sweetie! You have no idea how much I appreciate your help!
A/N: Written for the un_scribbled community's If

Comments

[countingcr0ws]

omg. i cried. i couldn't help but cry. it's like it was so good. it was perfect. it just reminded me of kiss shita mama sayonara. like you heard the melody before some days back, or maybe a year ago, and you couldn't remember, and try as you might you just can't place it. it's like when it begun, i just felt like it was so familiar. maybe it was a distant thought process as i griped about the past, and my mistakes. but oh, i loved it. i just don't know. it was so good. like it was so raw, and like i've never read something that employed such a unique way of relating a story

[mary_jane_025]

o.o wow. I don't even know where to start!!! This has got to be one of the best comments I've ever received *blushes* I didn't mean to make you cry even if it's a very very sad story. I found it sad too...

I think I was kind of on a subconcious level inspired by the Butterfly Effect, which is kind of the same thing and then not really at all, but they have this thing with changing one little thing in your past and your entire future is different. I think it might be familiar though, because the path Jaejoong is thinking on is one that everyone would do? I think? If that makes sense? I mean I usually do that just a little in my head. Like "oh if I had just left the house one second earlier" or something like that....

And yeah, Yunho had to be broken before Jaejoong realised he could say he loved him.

*pats back* Don't cry sweetie! Thank you so much for this wonderful comment. You have no idea how happy you made me - not that your tears made me happy <3 thank you so much <3

[countingcr0ws]

no, no. goodness. i find it so good when i actually make people cry through my words. like i find it so amazing. it makes me happy, even. like people go about in their daily lives all composed, and then there they go, falling into your innocuous link on detox or something, and they end up falling apart. it makes me feel so good. like you moved them/ made them sad with your mere words, like it's kinda a fictitious story that isn't something messing with their lives directly, as it the sting isn't in their lives, but they're moved/ messed up enough to start bawling. oh, that's so good. like when i cry really badly over something and i tell my friend about what i did, i'd describe it like 'it was completely like a personal attack.' like it was a personal issue, like my pet dog died, my results sucks soo bad, i lost my phone kind of personal attack bad. do i make sense? so, please do. please lavish in the fact that you made me cry. because it's so good. if i could (but i can't), i'd spend time trying to craft something that'd even squeeze

[countingcr0ws]

oh man. i wrote a longer reply than you! i tend to do that. hahaha. i tend to go off tangent and go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on so often. and just so you know, i typed that whole on and on and on and on individually. i didn't copy paste them. haha. irrelevant. mannnn.

[mary_jane_025]

Awwww.. You're too cute *squishes and pokes cheeks* There's nothing wrong with tangents! :D Unless you're doing maths and in that case they can be pretty annoying. But anyway, yes I know what you mean about moving people, however I'm not that sadistic that I enjoy making people cry. I will however lavish in the fact that I moved you :D *lavishes happily

[countingcr0ws]

okay. to be really really negative, no, not catching the bus made him all screwed. haha. okay okay. *sits down seriously* it's like the whole fate thing. *gets really animated and worked up* like dude. it's yunjae. maybe they'd meet like at some point later, right? but then, maybe not. lol. irrelevant. my tangent is screwy

[mary_jane_025]

Well..... Depends on which ending you're going for.. :b If it's the first then it made him realise a lot of things and fall in love and live happily ever after.
If it's the second it made him experience great love, but it also broke his heart.
And nu-uh, in my story they could only meet if it was on that bus *nods like a child* or something..... :b

Hahahaha.. Sorry for that! it wasn't on purpose but the butterfly effect is really good! I'd recommend that to anyone! :b

Hahahahahaha.. That's kind of funny. I used to wish that our car could fly when we were stuck in traffic. But I think that's the weirdest thing. As far as I remember that is ;)

Uhmmm.. *waves awkwardly* Yeah that's me.... I'm actually writing a sequel for that..... Because my friend dared me to do a Harry Potter version! Hahaha.
And yes, please do leave comments, I love getting comments so I'm sure everyone else does too! <3

[countingcr0ws]

you know tbh, now that you mentioned it, i think that i totally skipped the whole part. my brain's not wired to process alternate endings. but anyway, i think i kinda think of it as a stasis, as jaejoong loop mentally without a definite end. like i don't want to know

[mary_jane_025]

Hahaha... It's okay.... My one friend said I should kill him, my other said I shouldn't. Ergo, I did both! Hahaha :b
But yeah it is kind of a stasis in some way or another.

Hahaha.. YOu do what your head makes you do ;) Ohhhh.. A maybe sounds like a good idea! Maybe it'll be even angstier! Hahahaha.. Sorry but in my head comes the sentence "and maybe if he just walked over and talked to him, maybe, just maybe, he'd actually have a chance. The end." Or something like that ....

No I haven't posted it yet... *is now scared* Hahahaha.. :b
And yeah, the world is filled with cute people and weird fantasies when we're in a hurry... hahahaha...

Nah.. I'm a dentist students, but I took maths as A-level in college/high school. But yeah it'll be YunJae plus the math plus Harry Potter. It's a sequel, so it's the same story, just using Harry Potter themed pick up lines... :b

It's a very good habit and I loooove your comments <3

[countingcr0ws]

*shakes your hand proudly for the casual use of ergo

[countingcr0ws]

OMG, ESSAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY@@@@@@

[mary_jane_025]

*pats head* You're cute!! :b