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The PE Exam is going to kill me...
I love lifelong learning. Self-awareness and striving to better myself have always been high priorities. It keeps me feeling alive and involved. But this studying for the PE (Professional Engineers) Exam is going to put me over the edge. My life has become a daily rehash of: get up, go to work, come home, study, fall into bed, repeat. Weekends ( Read more... ) -
A day about to cry
The plan is set ( Read more... ) -
Why am I awake?
I used to be a morning person. Now I can't seem to sleep well (if at all) and have trouble getting up in the morning. So I start to think about whether I am a night person now....Nope, I am certainly not the life of the party after 9pm. So then what am I doing up at this hour (2:23am ( Read more... ) -
I should write more
How come I can't seem to get it all done? I start out the weekend with the best of intentions, but inevitably, I get distracted by the 'little' things. You know, the 'little' things: A martini, an extra hour (or two) of sleep, freecell, sudoku, a movie. OK, so I admit I am a slacker, but I would bet that the rest of you struggle with this too ( Read more... ) -
Scrambled Eggs & Ham
SCRAMBLED EGGS ( Read more... ) -
Progress
I responded to a couple of journal entries from a friend I met who runs a grief support group on-line for parents who have lost a child. I did not get her permission to include her material here, but I thought my response would not be too out of context to be shared by itself ( Read more... ) -
Getting back in the game
Today I called my supervisor at work and informed him that I will be starting back at work next Monday. I am really excited to be getting back to a 'normal' life. At the same time I am scared to death. What if I start to have my melt-downs again ( Read more... ) -
A question of changes....
I’ll be visiting my husband this weekend and in addition to feeling guilt for any gift or foofera he may do or have for my birthday, I am very apprehensive about what is in store for me. Our daily conversations have been getting hotter and more explicit as to what evil he would like to bestow upon me while I visit. It gets me off so well, but ( Read more... ) -
Learning to Value Myself
It sounds so easy. Just start to value yourself like you value others, right ( Read more... ) -
When the heat is high enough the mettle will melt...
Several weeks ago, almost a month and a half, I started having major melt downs. By melt downs, I mean just breaking down and crying for seemingly nothing at all. At first it was happening only at home, so I was just thinking I was grieving over the death of my son, the stress of having my husband away at school and having two teenage sons to ( Read more... )