Getting back in the game
Today I called my supervisor at work and informed him that I will be starting back at work next Monday. I am really excited to be getting back to a 'normal' life. At the same time I am scared to death. What if I start to have my melt-downs again?
I've always been the survivor, so I know I'll survive. But I want more than that. The problem has been that I have survived all this time without caring for myself. This time, I want to care for myself while living, working and doing the things that have to get done. THAT sounds more like the life I want.
The problem will be to recognize when I am ignoring my needs. I have ignored my needs for so long that it has become habit. The time off has helped me to find things I like to do for myself, and I want to continue creating the time for them. Even if it is just to spend half an hour by myself reading or writing or practicing piano, or (shhhh, don't tell anyone) nothing at all, I must continue to acknowledge that I deserve as much consideration as all the other people in my life.
Hey, that sounded good...maybe I should just read it to myself everyday as an affirmation ;^)
Wish me Luck!
I've always been the survivor, so I know I'll survive. But I want more than that. The problem has been that I have survived all this time without caring for myself. This time, I want to care for myself while living, working and doing the things that have to get done. THAT sounds more like the life I want.
The problem will be to recognize when I am ignoring my needs. I have ignored my needs for so long that it has become habit. The time off has helped me to find things I like to do for myself, and I want to continue creating the time for them. Even if it is just to spend half an hour by myself reading or writing or practicing piano, or (shhhh, don't tell anyone) nothing at all, I must continue to acknowledge that I deserve as much consideration as all the other people in my life.
Hey, that sounded good...maybe I should just read it to myself everyday as an affirmation ;^)
Wish me Luck!