The more things change the more they just stay the same. I feel so lost sometimes, I that I feel like I really am just loosing my mind. I just want things to be smooth. You know that sense of relief that you get after something major has blown over. I am still waiting for that...I heard it happens...but still haven't felt it yet ( Read more... )

Well...things are a little better now. I have my highs and I have me lows. I still wonder how it is all going to work out in the end, but at the same time I am just pushing through, trying to focus on the good...at least for now. I just can't wait to graduate and be done with school. I really don't know what is going to happen after that, but I am ( Read more... )

New day...fresh start? How about no. Things are always the same. The thing that gets me is that sometimes even when you want to talk, the person that you want to listen seldom does. You just ramble on and on and make a fool of yourself...beating around the bush waiting for the other person to pick up on what you are saying...but they don't. You ( Read more... )

So I am just me...I realized that today...real profound right?! I don't even know what it means...I guess that I can only be me, and that I can only control me. I don't know. Lately things have been a little confusing for me. I guess that would be considered normal for me. I am always a little lost or confused. I still have a lot on my mind, and ( Read more... )

Well things seem to go a little better. I don't really know what lies ahead, but then again maybe no one does. Trying to figure out what exactly does lie ahead gets exhausting and makes everything more complicated that what it should be. Sometimes it is just better to let things happen, and hope for the best. There is only so much in life that ( Read more... )

Well things here go I suppose. Nothing ventured nothing gained right? Things have been rough lately...but I hope that I will manage to pull through it all sometime soon. i am really tired of everything in life seeming to suck...so hopefully things will change. I am trying to be more positive and to look at things in a positive light. Trying ( Read more... )

So last night I got a bit drunk...nothing new...seems pretty common lately...none of my problems seem to disappear though. I am really so lost inside myself....no one really understands I don't think....They say they do, but how could they...I have no trust in anyone anymore....I am scared all of the time, that people will just change thier minds, ( Read more... )

So confused, but I suppose that is normal right, at least for me. I am always confused. Life is just so mysterious I suppose...I don't know. I guess that I am not not meant to have anything really all that easy in life. I mean that doesn't consitute feeling sorry for myself, it just means that I need to learn to accept it and figure out how to deal ( Read more... )

So many things have changed. Bud is a jerk...but I suppose everyone else but me already knew that. Cheating for five months...I am pretty sure that can't be considered an accident. Not when it has gone on for so long. The funny thing is that you would think that I would be devestated, wanting him back...but I am not. I am actually happy that he ( Read more... )

Things are so messed up in my life, I just don't know how much more that I can take. I would love to be able to just escape from everything, act like everything is okay. One of my professors said that you are what you act like. Too bad I am no good at acting, and don't like to pretend to be something that I am not. I don't mask things well, I ( Read more... )