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Well things here go I suppose. Nothing ventured nothing gained right? Things have been rough lately...but I hope that I will manage to pull through it all sometime soon. i am really tired of everything in life seeming to suck...so hopefully things will change. I am trying to be more positive and to look at things in a positive light. Trying being the key word. I am not sure if I will actually be any good at it, but I am going to try. I think that people try to understand where I come from, and that sometimes they do understand more than I think...but sometimes people just really dont...and they cant help it...most people...not all...someof the time...not all...I still could use a vacation, but then again who couldn't right. What I would be vacationing from I don't know, and if I would like it when I got there I don't know. As for the whole love thing and trying to analyze whether someone really loves me and how they feel and what not...why even put myself through the agony...it is safer, easier, and less stressful to just go with things and hope for the best...sometimes it is better to just let things happen, and see what happens on its own without thinking about it....or at least i hope so...I am trying to forget about the past...or more work through it...and get over it...i realize that they things that happened will never be okay with me, and that is okay, they shouldn't be....but sooner or later...I will just be okay with where I am at....i am really going to try to make a conscous effort to concentrate on me and where I am at...work on a career....and getting myself set up, and then see what happens...hopefully someone will be there to share it with me...if not...I hope to be happy enough with myself and on my own to find my way...and not dwell...I worry and think too much...