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Well things seem to go a little better. I don't really know what lies ahead, but then again maybe no one does. Trying to figure out what exactly does lie ahead gets exhausting and makes everything more complicated that what it should be. Sometimes it is just better to let things happen, and hope for the best. There is only so much in life that you control, and the more you try to control the things that you can't the more unhappy you become. I guess that I have to learn to accept certain things, and somehow find a way to move on. I don't know. It is hard to let myself go and just relax, I worry that if I am not paying attention the entire time that everything will just spin totally out of control, and I will be left again to pick up the pieces. That might not happen though, and if it does, I am prepared in a way, and I know I can do it all over, because I have practice now. While I still can't understand how some people do the things that they do, not all people do the same things, there are good people out there, and sometimes good people do bad things, they just don't do them intentionally.