So I found out the other day that a former friend of mine basically lied to me, more so than I had understood. If you look back at my previous journal entries, there are several about a specific guy that I was interested in. I had an idea that they were interested in each other, but part of me was in denial. Our friendship basically fell apart, not ( Read more... )

WARNING! WARNING! This message will probably be depressing. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything of the sort, I just feel like writing my thoughts out. WARNING! WARNING!I feel kinda lost right now. And numb, perhaps? I dunno. I miss my old life. It's not a matter of immaturity, at least not in my opinion. It's just... I don't like not knowing ( Read more... )

I dreamt last night that we were walking and bantering as we always do, but then your hand brushed mine and took hold of it. Then when you were worried of how it looked, you simply moved your arm to my shoulders and pulled me closer, all the while every other action was exactly the same. I don't know what that means, but the more I try to deny it, ( Read more... )

I'm sitting at work, loading cd's and listening to my iPod until I have to go Board Op the Orioles-Yankees game at 6:30 and that's giving me plenty of time to think. I'm stuck. I'm not at all where I thought I would be at this point in my life. It's different from my senior year of high school. I didn't know where I was going exactly, but I knew ( Read more... )

Senioritis is a bitch. I don't wanna do anything. I'm sick of paying for what's going to "further" my life. I don't know... I feel like college just makes you more miserable. I mean, yeah, you're getting an education or whatever, but why do you have to PAY to be educated? I think it's ridiculous. I don't know ( Read more... )

I've been doing a lot of thinking since, well, I haven't done much else. I realized that I have all the answers I've been looking for from what was left unsaid. Why did I not think about it? Why didn't I accept it sooner? And why is it so hard to let go of something that I never had in the first place? I wasted an entire year wanting so badly to ( Read more... )

Hello, hello. I posted a blog on myspace, but I decided it's been awhile since I posted something here. "It's summertime...and the living's easy..." Ain't that the truth? I do enjoy summer for the simple fact that there are so few worries. No real deadlines, just living the way you'd life. I'm working at the radio station for credits which is ( Read more... )

Hello friends. It's been awhile. Not much to report. I chopped all my hair off. That's newsworthy, at least in my world. Other than that...not too much. We just finished up Easter break. Who the hell am I kidding? I'm not writing in this to babble about things that don't matter at all to me ( Read more... )

I would've given anything for you to have come after me when I walked out the door.

All I want is to find someone that won't let me push them away because they know I really don't want them to go.

Shit, haven't written since Christmas. Well, here we are in semester number 6. Only two more left and then it's out into the big bad world. Let's not think about that though, shall we? I should really do something useful like my graphics project but I just don't care. I had a nice talk with a guy that like a semester ago I would have never expected ( Read more... )