Notes to Self (FF is down):

People suck, don't forget it.
Stop overthinking.
Stop underthinking.
Set goals.
Stick with the familiar.
Find comfort where you can.
Love your animals.
Blog more.
Talk to people less.
Don't expect anything.
Stay busy.
Pretend none of it matters.
Hold on to what does matter.
Make lists.
Focus on the good.
Look forward.

Writing... half way to push the below entry down... partly because I want to and I know this journal gets checked less often. Might as well delay the backlash right? Just watched the (current) object of my affection and my ex walk out the door together for a road trip to pick up the former's ex. In a car owned by yours truly. Am I too nice or just ( Read more... )

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Been avoiding writing...not been at home. My mother died at roughly 7:20 PM Friday night. She was 47.

She got home on Tuesday and broke done the minute they got the strecher in the house. She was just in so much pain and panicing... At one point we thought it was okay but then she decided to try to go to the bathroom. She's been unable to walk ( Read more... )

Oh my...

First, excuse my typos I'm at my mother's on her PC and I am not used to a normal keyboard anymore.

Second, I don't have net at home at the moment. That should change on Friday.

Third, oh the chaos...

Lemme see if I can get this timeline straight...days are blurring badly again. Friday...not this past one but the one before my mother was ( Read more... )

Oh my...

First, excuse my typos I'm at my mother's on her PC and I am not used to a normal keyboard anymore.

Second, I don't have net at home at the moment. That should change on Friday.

Third, oh the chaos...

Lemme see if I can get this timeline straight...days are blurring badly again. Friday...not this past one but the one before my mother was ( Read more... )

Why is it that reading the CL best of makes me want to write? Shrug...I should probably be playinig with kiddo, but she's happily feeding the dogs their food...somehow it tastes better from her hand and not their dish. It's 60 something today and we are enjoying the deck. Least we will be till my battery dies or I decide I want to keep writing and ( Read more... )

Holy sh!t I now feel better... I'm going to enjoy this while I can... no buzz though there should be (just polished off the everclear/dew mixes leftover from Sat night). Ah well that's pry for the better. Might watch some movie on Carter later. Not sure I can stay awake through that but damned if I won't try.

Roomie moved out this morning. I pulled ( Read more... )

Writing not thinking, f you're gonna get hurt by me writing something or if you're going to get offended by potential TMIs don't read on. You've been warned... and I put in spaces now ( Read more... )

My stupid dog tripped the card table and spilled rum all over my cigs. Stupid dog. I'm fighting off the blues. I told the roomie why I don't drink alone, but man... it looked yum so I did. Course that's only cuz he did lol. Nonetheless, just gotta ride this buzz out and I'll be alright... cuz tomorrow is FRIDAY. Hey there's a message on my box... ( Read more... )