It is not 6:30 AM.
I am not wide awake.
I am sure as hell not listening to Bryan Adams - Do I Have to Say the Words?
I do not have to be up in less then 5 hours.

Do ya believe me? You shouldn't.

It's so late...I didn't get much sleep last night. Thumper thinks I fight with him when I've been drinking simply because I've been drinking. I keep telling him it's all shit I think sober, but hold in the best I can because I don't want to fight with him. The alcohol does not make me more "aggressive;" it makes me more likely to be numb. So we go ( Read more... )

Unconventional... that was the word. Heh...here's another: understatement! Now that I've gotten a few hours of nonalcohol induced I have this crazy feeling that I spent the weekend at a spa or something. Spa that kept me intoxi-ma-cated for almost 48 hours.. ah lovely. Makes a girl wonder why it took so long to get there again... ah hell because my ( Read more... )

Yup, I'm still here. Been writing a lot more in a locked journal for various reasons. Other people's privacy issues mostly.  Meaning they want to perserve their privacy...complicated and such.

That being said...I wentout of town for a weekend about a month ago, came home sleep deprived with my power turned off.  Very interesting experience, very ( Read more... )

Some rants...

My next door neighbor... she knocks on my door at 9:30 at ( Read more... )

Yeah, so... I've been feeling like crap lately. And yes, this will be whiney. Deal with it. Between the panic attacks being brought on by the task of packing/unpacking... read: packing my recently deceased mother's stuff while chasing around my 2 year old and 11 animals and the lack of company.. arggg.

Patches tells me I should not be doing the ( Read more... )

The more I ponder the lyrics to this song, the more I like it. That being said Disturbed is one of my top, say 3, bands to come out post '94. Still think "Believe" has the best lyrics, but some of this new stuff has nice bass in it.

Lots of stuff to write as always, but.. let's see what I can get to. First...the "real life" crap. The baby's sick ( Read more... )

Write about anything? Really? Hmm...right. Still in this state where what I want to say will either not come out or I know there will be some nasty consequences. Lord knows I don't do myself any favors in that respect.

Living at my mother's place now.. just me and the kiddo.. and 5 rats..by which I mean chihuahuas (3 mixes) and the 5 cats.Oh and ( Read more... )

Knew this was coming... did what I could. Silly girl don't you know better? So yeah, I'm sitting at my mother's place. Solo. The solo part is the kicker. Still a bit too dizzy from my drink myself into not caring routine. Had plans for last night. Got blown off...with a text message. A fucking text message! Not going there... Living your own life ( Read more... )

So much too write lately... so little ambition to write it. Well I suppose that's only part of the problem...the rest of it is...well my words have a tendency to get twisted and thrown back at me these days. So excuse my censoring ( Read more... )