I am freeeee!

There is no one to say "hey good job, you can do it, keep at it"...well besides my mom. I have few friends that share the drive and passion that I have. The ones that do, I feel like I need to be around them more often. It's inspiring ( Read more... )

but one of these things depresses me.

i need to lose weight and buy better clothes real soon. not getting anywhere with any women unless i do that.

Catch the rainbow if you can ( Read more... )

terrible depression averted!

i don't know whats wrong with me. i want to see a psychiatrist or a therapist soon.
i think i need help.

anyway, i had really great day dreams today. wish i could make them real.

DEEP DEPRESSION ROUND 2.

I fucking hate myself. I've run out of options and I've hit a brick wall. Lost contact with a lot of people, and now losing contact completely with the one person I really cared about or could feel happy with.

What to do, what to do.

What in the world would make you think she was talking about you?

Why would she ever think about you.

You were made to move like rusty machinery. Quit being a faggot. Take it in stride, use the pain as motivation. You will reap different rewards. Love is not meant for you, not in this form.

-Yourself.

i want hope.

i give you clues, i hope you hear them. doesn't matter who. i'm in pain and agony sometimes.
a good majority of the time. in real life i can't let it out.

it just hit me like a ton of bricks again. i can't keep go ing on this way. somethings got to give.