I am completely alone in a good way and a bad way.
There is no one to say "hey good job, you can do it, keep at it"...well besides my mom. I have few friends that share the drive and passion that I have. The ones that do, I feel like I need to be around them more often. It's inspiring.
I am also alone in the aspect that there is not one person that I truly confide in anymore. No one I share very personal moments and thoughts with. I am back to square one. I have a lot of friends but we don't ever really talk about shit. This is mostly my fault. I think I can count on my hand how many times I've had conversations about real shit with all my friends. It's weird.
I'd be lying if I said I don't miss having a female companion. I think It's unnecessary, and I don't need it but at the same time I do. Just for my own self esteem and comfort. But at the same time, I shouldn't rely so much on that shit. I should learn to be ok with myself. Continue to be focused on my motivations.
I am also alone in the aspect that there is not one person that I truly confide in anymore. No one I share very personal moments and thoughts with. I am back to square one. I have a lot of friends but we don't ever really talk about shit. This is mostly my fault. I think I can count on my hand how many times I've had conversations about real shit with all my friends. It's weird.
I'd be lying if I said I don't miss having a female companion. I think It's unnecessary, and I don't need it but at the same time I do. Just for my own self esteem and comfort. But at the same time, I shouldn't rely so much on that shit. I should learn to be ok with myself. Continue to be focused on my motivations.