I feel like absolute shit and ALONE!!! Why must I make the attempts at maintaining friendships? My effort is then slammed back into my face and I am left wondering, "Why?" I just want to cry!!!!!

New Year's Day I made chicken enchaladas for Jen and Amber. It was nice to hang out with Jen again....just like old times. We watched a movie that really lacked a plot, "Heights". Glen Close was rather hot though with her dark brown hair and nice figure ( Read more... )

I want to run away from the madness of the holidays, depression, people, sickness, ect. I must remind myself that I can see through the sadness. I want to continue on with pushing through this life. I do not want to succumb to completing my inner desires of dying, at least not until my time is near ( Read more... )

I have to admit that living alone is so much better verses sharing with another person. At least for now, because I would essentially love to have another roommate. Only time will tell though ( Read more... )

..................Before I return to work after three days off. I spent Thanksgiving without human companionship. Compared to last Thanksgiving when I was on an away trip with my ex at the hot springs. Life is really interesting these days. As I was making my dinner, I thought to myself, "You might as well get used to being alone on the holidays ( Read more... )

Later in the evening, on this particular Wednesday, my ex will be moving all of her belongings out of my living space. I call it mine, because she is never here and doesn't participate in any of the domestic chores that must be completed for the sake of maintaining "healthy living". I am rather relieved to see her leave. As of now, I question if ( Read more... )

Here I sit, thinking about these last few months. Isn't life fucking predictable? It seems like yesterday when I was planning my future with Sam. She and I were strolling hand in hand down the Las Vegas Strip gazing at the neon lights discussing the possibility of moving there. I remember when she shook her head at this prospect, because of the ( Read more... )

I send my heart out to those who are experiencing the floods. It was reported that federal aid was taking too long for those who are in New Orleans. Figures, when a crisis happens in this country, the government takes its sweet time. The National Guard was sent to N.O today. What a mess. Police officers were reported to have walked off of the ( Read more... )

Animals are truly fascinating role models. As I was helping my newest kitten, "Sidney", remove a toy mouse from underneath the refrigerator, it dawned on me. Yes, my canine and feline are wonderful, indeed. I will post my thoughts on this subject soon.

Forget moving to Canada, I have discovered a new interest in Sweden.  Swedish ( Read more... )