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Vaguejournalling
I’m so worn out with a situation and I know I have it the easiest. How do people do it? It’s unbelievably sad that not everyone can count on their family. Just to stay with them for a month? I’ve never worried that I had nowhere to go. Sometimes it was too much to ask but only because I didn’t want it or need it enough. It might not have been ( Read more... ) -
I can't tell if I'm still stressed out
Except that I'm having a hard time staying present. The conflict I was having seems funny now. It was just a perfect storm at the time. So much going on, so much physical and psychological pressure, such terrible functionality. I still kind of what to smoke cigarettes. But at least I'm brushing my teeth again, mostly.
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You're just making yourself look worse you know.
I mean, everybody's just going to feel sorry for you. I mean, I do.
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Dos and Don'ts when someone in a mental health crisis is mad at you
Dredging through the horror that is my old livejournal entries, I found a conflict I'd totally forgotten about from 13 years ago, during a period I was manic / psychotic and in and out of mental hospitals. I was mad at a bunch of people. I wouldn't say it was totally without reason, but I had made a lot of assumptions about a very delicate, ( Read more... ) -
It's been a long long long long time
and my life is very different now. I am different now. But I'm not catching up. That would take too long. Let's just jump in.
I'm exhausted. Coping with a friend's breakdown, taking care of her very ill cat, and sorting through the interpersonal situation that led to her instability, on top of my regular responsibilities. Is a lot. It's ( Read more... ) -
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when i'm depressed i think ( Read more... ) -
gluten-free ghetto gourmet presents: shortbread
*for maximum ghetto effect, get all of your ingredients on food stamps or from food boxez ( Read more... ) -
sometimes i wonder... about myself.
i had this dream last night that i was sittin' on a couch, talking to this guy. and all the sudden i was like, "oh hey, you were at the o.j. simpson trial!" then i realized that he was o.j. simpson. needless to say, he was kind of annoyed. -
do you control your brain? or does it control you...
schizophrenia is the sort of thing one can learn to master, if it doesn't master you first. all i ever really get is thoughts. hallucinations are pretty rare... sometimes a little visual distortiong... but it's mostly the thoughts. little seeds of paranoid delusion that i can choose to nurture or not. and i choose not to. but they are weird. it's ( Read more... ) -
the wolf
he is the only one ( Read more... )