Wow. It's been a while. With Facebook taking over the world of internet social life, I don't think many people come around here anymore. But what the hell ( Read more... )

so i guess i really do have the ability to fuck up some of my more important relationships in this life, as evidence has shown yet again this year ( Read more... )

My parents are upstairs talking to someone probably connected to the massive amounts of construction going on in my house right now, so i don't have to worry about them coming downstairs and yelling at me for not working ( Read more... )

I don't even know what the fuck i'm doing anymore. first it was diagnosed as mild depression, now it's being called an existential crisis. in that case, it is very difficult to focus on anything productive while in the midst of an existential crisis. actually, i've been finding it pretty impossible ( Read more... )

Today....today was bland and flat. It should not have been. Laura Mattison was at school and i walked with her around the new building, showing her the nooks and crannies of our warped and ruined school. i didn't spend much time thinking about anything at all today, and then i got diagnosed with mild depression. i have the option to take anti- ( Read more... )

fuck this bullshit.
honestly, i'm just getting tired of everyone (so really its nothing personal).
maybe its just time for me to get up and go.

instead of doing my mounds of work ( Read more... )

two am. surfing useless shit on the internet. refuse to go to bed. parents sleeping next door....

....now would be a really good time for frenchmen to stop falling in love with me.
godammit.

is it wrong of me to be slightly unnerved that my mother is more concerned with the fact that i got a B+ on a spanish test instead of an A than the fact that my selfconcern and gereral energy are contintually dwindling ( Read more... )

past few days:
three dodgy substances
90's tv shows
a mental breakdown
an amazing conversation
a few fast car rides
a description of my eyes using quote from 'perks' (my life is now comlete)
a million major assignments
somehow just not very much stress

three more days of school. nothing can stop me now.