Glad we got that out of the way. Now we can wait for history to repeat itself, to begin to crumble as expected (already started - 10 minutes is a record kickstart). It helps that you were kind of an idiot, it makes it easier on me. It also helps that I went into it this time basically just for the corporeal. And I got it. Good, bring on the ( Read more... )

There are so many things that are entirely not okay right now.

EDIT: Fantastic. I fall asleep, only to have my phone go off, a fucking series of texts that started the entire thing over again. I cannot believe I was woken up to just get slapped in the face with more shit. It's a good thing I was already so numb or I'd be devastated. I probably ( Read more... )

→ Weekend was crap. I wrote about it already but I took it down moments after I put it up because I realized that March 16th was a day on which I did not want to whine. Dallas was concerned because she got an email but then couldn't see the entry, so if that happened to anyone else, don't worry, I didn't remove anybody or filter anybody out and I' ( Read more... )

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LIST OF PEOPLE I WANT TO FUCKING PUNCH IN THE GODDAMN FACE:
01.) EVERYONE.

I'll be honest. I don't normally feel too bad about myself. I like who I am and I like most of the decisions I make, but right now I feel like absolute shit and I hate myself and it's like an even bigger blow because I DON'T normally feel this way. So I quite literally don't even know how to deal. I'm not used to it and it sucks ( Read more... )

"Well, you can't always have everything the way you want it, Alyssa."

And then I burst into tears because there was someone with whom I could. And I did. He probably assumes that since I've only ever been with one person before him, that I wouldn't know any better. That I'd just accept this shit. That I'd think this was just the way it goes. That ( Read more... )

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→ I am going slightly insane right now because I was in the middle of this gorgeous film, called The Pallbearer, SOME OF YOU MAY HAVE HEARD OF IT BECAUSE THERE ARE LIKE A ZILLION AWESOME PEOPLE IN IT, and my fucking cable goes out. For no reason. It's not even storming or anything. And the film isn't up for download, so... "this sucks" does not ( Read more... )

He kissed her mid-sentence. And suddenly there was no longer a listener nor a speaker left in this conversation. Oh, but they were still conversing - words were just no longer necessary. Because as Ingrid Bergman says, "A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous." It's true. She doesn't even remember a ( Read more... )