bartender, another, and make it a double
I'll be honest. I don't normally feel too bad about myself. I like who I am and I like most of the decisions I make, but right now I feel like absolute shit and I hate myself and it's like an even bigger blow because I DON'T normally feel this way. So I quite literally don't even know how to deal. I'm not used to it and it sucks.
My left arm won't stop itching and I can't find a mosquito bite or anything on it so now I'm freaking out that it's becoming a physical manifestation of my poor fucking judgment.
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→ I woke up early by my standards and laid out in the sun for about 30 minutes and got a decent amount of color for that short amount of time. I then started to clean but didn't get very far, as you can imagine.
→ So happy for the SYTYCD winner. ALSO!!! Mia!!!! sdkfh sdkjfhsd fjslkfjskjf skjfh kjfh sdkjfh skjhdf skjlhf sdkjhf shf skdhf skhdf shf kshf ksjfh I can't wait to make icons of her beautiful self up on that stage.
→ Tony leaves tomorrow. He called me up at 9 and asked me to karaoke down the road so I went and when I got there, he informed me that he was going to be singing and when I asked which song, he said he was going to do Sweet Child so I lost my shit and he added my name to his slip. Fucker. So I sang it with him but I didn't put up THAT much of a fight and I had fun and afterwards, three different people came up and told me how awesome I was because I was having so much fun. We got drunk and I went to buy my own drinks but he was like, "NO! It's your birthday!" lol, yeah, three days ago and you've already bought me a fuck ton of alcohol for it but hey I'll take it. He had to walk me home because we didn't want to drive. He picked me up and threw me into a public sprinkler. He hung out here for a little bit and then we went to McDonald's.
→ I slept just now and had a horrifying dream that I was in a car with Derek, and he'd been drinking and we got pulled over. I was so scared I was going to get in trouble for underage drinking, until I remembered that I was 21 and I'm perfectly entitled to be drunk in a passenger seat. The cop gave me a breathalyser, I first blew a .9 LOL, and then a .54. He asked for ID so I handed him my passport, which is what I've been using because I can't find my ACTUAL drivers license, and he tried to tell me that it was fake and it wasn't legit and he was yelling at me and dragging me out of the car and god, it was so scary.
My left arm won't stop itching and I can't find a mosquito bite or anything on it so now I'm freaking out that it's becoming a physical manifestation of my poor fucking judgment.
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→ I woke up early by my standards and laid out in the sun for about 30 minutes and got a decent amount of color for that short amount of time. I then started to clean but didn't get very far, as you can imagine.
→ So happy for the SYTYCD winner. ALSO!!! Mia!!!! sdkfh sdkjfhsd fjslkfjskjf skjfh kjfh sdkjfh skjhdf skjlhf sdkjhf shf skdhf skhdf shf kshf ksjfh I can't wait to make icons of her beautiful self up on that stage.
→ Tony leaves tomorrow. He called me up at 9 and asked me to karaoke down the road so I went and when I got there, he informed me that he was going to be singing and when I asked which song, he said he was going to do Sweet Child so I lost my shit and he added my name to his slip. Fucker. So I sang it with him but I didn't put up THAT much of a fight and I had fun and afterwards, three different people came up and told me how awesome I was because I was having so much fun. We got drunk and I went to buy my own drinks but he was like, "NO! It's your birthday!" lol, yeah, three days ago and you've already bought me a fuck ton of alcohol for it but hey I'll take it. He had to walk me home because we didn't want to drive. He picked me up and threw me into a public sprinkler. He hung out here for a little bit and then we went to McDonald's.
→ I slept just now and had a horrifying dream that I was in a car with Derek, and he'd been drinking and we got pulled over. I was so scared I was going to get in trouble for underage drinking, until I remembered that I was 21 and I'm perfectly entitled to be drunk in a passenger seat. The cop gave me a breathalyser, I first blew a .9 LOL, and then a .54. He asked for ID so I handed him my passport, which is what I've been using because I can't find my ACTUAL drivers license, and he tried to tell me that it was fake and it wasn't legit and he was yelling at me and dragging me out of the car and god, it was so scary.