how could they know that because of their little dance the world lives?
→ Weekend was crap. I wrote about it already but I took it down moments after I put it up because I realized that March 16th was a day on which I did not want to whine. Dallas was concerned because she got an email but then couldn't see the entry, so if that happened to anyone else, don't worry, I didn't remove anybody or filter anybody out and I'll put it up later when I can deal with it better. I got all introspective and reflective and shit, about what allows me to move on from things and what doesn't. I've thought about it a lot these past few days. Took a pointless drive through fog and Imogen Heap and that was my Saturday night. We will talk about it later. :/ BUT I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW WHAT WAS UP WITH THE PHANTOM ENTRY.
→ Monday, I worked. Very uneventful, as far as I remember, which I don't. So I'm guessing it was standard. What I really wanted to write about were the things I've been watching lately.
The Hours; I finally watched The Hours. It's still sinking in, I think. I feel like it's one of those films where a majority of the value comes from thinking about it afterward. When I first watched it, I was kind of.... missing the point, I think. I don't want to say "underwhelmed", because I wasn't, but there was something that wasn't there for how much attention I've seen it get. But as I thought about it more, I fell more in love with it and I love that, when a film just gets under your skin and grows. I think I need to see it again to grasp it but I do have initial thoughts. FIRST OFF - THE MUSIC. I NEED THIS SOUNDTRACK. I noticed it immediately and I loved how it was constantly present because it gave a feel of connection and also a sense of urgency. My favorite part of the entire thing was that little girl (OH MY GOD, THE FAIRY WINGS. I DIED. DIED). And when the bird died and nobody cared except her and Virginia. I thought that scene was SO beautiful, the juxtaposition between that death and the life of all of the other non-caring people running around them. That scene really resonated with me because I would have been at the bird funeral, and I would have laid in the dirt to watch it die, too. And then in the scene were Virginia is talking to herself, writing her book in her head and her sister is yelling at her because she's not listening, the little girl was looking at her and she got up and I said to my mom, "She's going to be able to fix it because she gets Virginia." And so far, what I took away from this is that happiness doesn't last forever. But neither does the sadness that comes from losing it. I think of a clock, to make a metaphor. Life moves like a clock in a day. 12am to 12pm is happiness, that promise and potential that Clarissa talks about. And then you lose it, from 12pm to 12am. But something happens to bring it back when the new day comes around. Oh, and this: "You cannot find peace by avoiding life." AMAZING. AMAZING. And so applicable to so many things and people. I really loved the scene where Richard kills himself, too, I thought it was twistedly gorgeous. And so delicate with his speech and all of the imagery in it.
- ♥ -
Adaptation; I've seen quotes from this film, mostly from a_celeste, and I've always really loved them. Then I was recced this film so I finally looked it up and LOVED the idea of it so I finally watched it and I did quite love that too. I felt SO much of it, especially in the voice overs, I loved how they looked at artistic process and in a way it was a strange comfort to know that some of the things I think, some of the circles I talk myself into, are normal. Well, as "normal" as normal is in the contest of artistic gift/curse and the insanity that comes with it. I LOVE THE IDEA OF THIS FILM SO, SO MUCH. SO MUCH. I love how it studied the relationship between writer and subject in two different ways. The intrigue of it all, the fascination, the attraction, the bond. I loved it so much and I thought the film was gorgeously done, especially the first half of it. With all of the fades and the voice overs and the shots of flowers. That being said, I felt like I was watching a different film towards the end, with all of the drug use and two deaths in the span of 5 minutes (IDK if this is literal. I didn't check. But my point is they were right after each other). And I mean, I get it. I get that it was meant to parallel the search for the orchid - it's beautiful and attractive at the beginning but her book ends on a note of disappointment. That's where I thought it was going. And how he ended up meeting Meryl's character (IDR her name so I'm just going to call her Meryl) - I was so excited for that and expected it to be done in such an interesting and poetic way, but no, his obnoxious twin brother went in his place. And seriously, I understand this and why they did it, I'm just saying that for me, personally, I was hoping for more beauty. Which, again, all of the characters were, too, so I'm sure this was intentional. But oh my god there were SO many quotes that I loved. I love the scene with Meryl and Laroche in the swamp, ugh I wanted them to hook up there so bad. Also, Maggie Gyllenhaal was SO cute, as always. And also how it studied passion and what it means to feel for something (even if others find it trivial). I loved the scene in the car where Laroche was talking about all of the things he's collected or had a passion for, like fish, and Meryl couldn't understand how he could just move on from things and he talks about how he just woke up one day and decided "fuck fish" or whatever. I LOVE the play on the meanings of the word "adaptation". Overall it was very brilliant. And god, so many quotes. I'm just looking at IMDB but I'm sure there are more, I should have kept track and written them down. But these:
01; "I want to know what it feels like to care about something passionately."
02; "To begin... To begin... How to start? I'm hungry. I should get coffee. Coffee would help me think. Maybe I should write something first, then reward myself with coffee. Coffee and a muffin. Okay, so I need to establish the themes. Maybe a banana-nut. That's a good muffin." - THIS IS SO ME WHEN I EDIT, LOL. I LAUGHED SO HARD.
03; "*Charlie Kaufman has asked McKee for advice on his new screenplay in which 'nothing much happens'* ... Nothing happens in the world? Are you out of your fucking mind? People are murdered every day. There's genocide, war, corruption. Every fucking day, somewhere in the world, somebody sacrifices his life to save someone else. Every fucking day, someone, somewhere takes a conscious decision to destroy someone else. People find love, people lose it. For Christ's sake, a child watches her mother beaten to death on the steps of a church. Someone goes hungry. Somebody else betrays his best friend for a woman. If you can't find that stuff in life, then you, my friend, don't know crap about life. And why the FUCK are you wasting my two precious hours with your movie? I don't have any use for it! I don't have any bloody use for it!" OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I ALMOST CRIED. And the delivery was amazing to me.
04; "Point is, what's so wonderful is that every one of these flowers has a specific relationship with the insect that pollinates it. There's a certain orchid look exactly like a certain insect so the insect is drawn to this flower, its double, its soul mate, and wants nothing more than to make love to it. And after the insect flies off, spots another soul-mate flower and makes love to it, thus pollinating it. And neither the flower nor the insect will ever understand the significance of their lovemaking. I mean, how could they know that because of their little dance the world lives? But it does. By simply doing what they're designed to do, something large and magnificent happens." THIS WHOLE SCENE COUPLED WITH THE FOOTAGE THEY PLAYED OVER IT, I WAS SO FUCKING CAPTIVATED AND ENTHRALLED.
05; "There are too many ideas and things and people. Too many directions to go. I was starting to believe the reason it matters to care passionately about something, is that it whittles the world down to a more manageable size." ♥. This is my life.
- ♥ -
→ ALSO. FROM SUNDAY - MINUTE TO WIN IT IS THE BEST GAME SHOW EVAR. I FUCKING DIE AND I WANT TO GO ON IT. I'M SERIOUS. LIKE ALMOST EMAILING-PEOPLE-AND-SENDING-IN-VIDEOS SERIOUS. Amazing. And Celebrity Apprentice, I THINK I FELL IN LOVE WITH CYNDI LAUPER. COULD SHE BE ANY GODDAMN CUTER. Also she seems so interesting and just WEIRD but I mean that in the best way ever. And I have always thought Sharon Osbourne was so fucking awesome and badass and I love her too. Donald Trump's son bugs me. He just looks and carries himself like a total prick.
→ Yesterday, I had a fucking gorgeous day of friendship and laughter and hyperness and rain and making music on soda cans with gentleflower, who is the other half of my soul, all the way over in the Netherlands. It was exactly what I needed and it has been a long time since I've been that just... happy for no real reason and just exhilarated and up, up, up.
→ I didn't have class because we're on ~spring break~. OH last night though I started watching Fat Actress because I am secretly in love with Kirstie Alley. I was going to make a post about it but as a child, I think her and Steve Guttenberg in It Takes Two were the first thing I ever shipped. I came to this realization recently when I rewatched it a couple of months ago, I got to the scene where she's fixing up his hurt head and I got so many strange FEELINGS, YOU GUYS, ABOUT IT. It was like shipping and deja vu and all of these old memories and shit came back and it totally hit me. And oh my god I loved her SO much in that movie when I was little, I wanted to hang out with her character so bad, and when you're young you can't really distinguish between character and actor. But whatever, it was no big. Then I watched Cheers and totally loved her and then I followed her on Twitter and she is so FUNNY and WEIRD and BLUNT and I really, really love her. She seems so fucking fearless to me and she cracks me up bad and I love how she totally owns who she is, even when she thinks she's a "fucking fatass" and disgusting. She doesn't try to cover it up or act like she finds beauty in something she doesn't personally like and I find that so admirable. IDK. BUT ANYWAY. The show is hilarious. "You know Gwen Stefani?" - "*No doubt!"
→ American Idol; lol this season blows so much ass, you guys, I can't even. I like Didi, though. And Bowersox. Lacey bugs the fuck out of me. Everyone else I am indifferent to. I liked Alex Lambert but obviously no one else did. Whatevs. OH. OH. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT SIOBHAN. I LOVE HER TOO. Love her. That's it. None for Gretchen Wieners, bye.
→ Work today was SO. BORING. The highlight of my day was when some guy came in to give a presentation and he flew in the door and was all, "TOP O' THE MORNIN' TO YA!" AND HE HAD GREEN CUPCAKES FOR THE WHOLE OFFICE BECAUSE HE WAS 100% IRISH. IT WAS THE BEST EVER. And also Tracy's shirt, lol, it said, "I'm Irish. Forget the kiss, just buy me a beer." LOLLLLL. And it's just so hilarious because Tracy's pretty quiet, I never would have expected that on her which just made it funnier.
→ Monday, I worked. Very uneventful, as far as I remember, which I don't. So I'm guessing it was standard. What I really wanted to write about were the things I've been watching lately.
The Hours; I finally watched The Hours. It's still sinking in, I think. I feel like it's one of those films where a majority of the value comes from thinking about it afterward. When I first watched it, I was kind of.... missing the point, I think. I don't want to say "underwhelmed", because I wasn't, but there was something that wasn't there for how much attention I've seen it get. But as I thought about it more, I fell more in love with it and I love that, when a film just gets under your skin and grows. I think I need to see it again to grasp it but I do have initial thoughts. FIRST OFF - THE MUSIC. I NEED THIS SOUNDTRACK. I noticed it immediately and I loved how it was constantly present because it gave a feel of connection and also a sense of urgency. My favorite part of the entire thing was that little girl (OH MY GOD, THE FAIRY WINGS. I DIED. DIED). And when the bird died and nobody cared except her and Virginia. I thought that scene was SO beautiful, the juxtaposition between that death and the life of all of the other non-caring people running around them. That scene really resonated with me because I would have been at the bird funeral, and I would have laid in the dirt to watch it die, too. And then in the scene were Virginia is talking to herself, writing her book in her head and her sister is yelling at her because she's not listening, the little girl was looking at her and she got up and I said to my mom, "She's going to be able to fix it because she gets Virginia." And so far, what I took away from this is that happiness doesn't last forever. But neither does the sadness that comes from losing it. I think of a clock, to make a metaphor. Life moves like a clock in a day. 12am to 12pm is happiness, that promise and potential that Clarissa talks about. And then you lose it, from 12pm to 12am. But something happens to bring it back when the new day comes around. Oh, and this: "You cannot find peace by avoiding life." AMAZING. AMAZING. And so applicable to so many things and people. I really loved the scene where Richard kills himself, too, I thought it was twistedly gorgeous. And so delicate with his speech and all of the imagery in it.
- ♥ -
Adaptation; I've seen quotes from this film, mostly from a_celeste, and I've always really loved them. Then I was recced this film so I finally looked it up and LOVED the idea of it so I finally watched it and I did quite love that too. I felt SO much of it, especially in the voice overs, I loved how they looked at artistic process and in a way it was a strange comfort to know that some of the things I think, some of the circles I talk myself into, are normal. Well, as "normal" as normal is in the contest of artistic gift/curse and the insanity that comes with it. I LOVE THE IDEA OF THIS FILM SO, SO MUCH. SO MUCH. I love how it studied the relationship between writer and subject in two different ways. The intrigue of it all, the fascination, the attraction, the bond. I loved it so much and I thought the film was gorgeously done, especially the first half of it. With all of the fades and the voice overs and the shots of flowers. That being said, I felt like I was watching a different film towards the end, with all of the drug use and two deaths in the span of 5 minutes (IDK if this is literal. I didn't check. But my point is they were right after each other). And I mean, I get it. I get that it was meant to parallel the search for the orchid - it's beautiful and attractive at the beginning but her book ends on a note of disappointment. That's where I thought it was going. And how he ended up meeting Meryl's character (IDR her name so I'm just going to call her Meryl) - I was so excited for that and expected it to be done in such an interesting and poetic way, but no, his obnoxious twin brother went in his place. And seriously, I understand this and why they did it, I'm just saying that for me, personally, I was hoping for more beauty. Which, again, all of the characters were, too, so I'm sure this was intentional. But oh my god there were SO many quotes that I loved. I love the scene with Meryl and Laroche in the swamp, ugh I wanted them to hook up there so bad. Also, Maggie Gyllenhaal was SO cute, as always. And also how it studied passion and what it means to feel for something (even if others find it trivial). I loved the scene in the car where Laroche was talking about all of the things he's collected or had a passion for, like fish, and Meryl couldn't understand how he could just move on from things and he talks about how he just woke up one day and decided "fuck fish" or whatever. I LOVE the play on the meanings of the word "adaptation". Overall it was very brilliant. And god, so many quotes. I'm just looking at IMDB but I'm sure there are more, I should have kept track and written them down. But these:
01; "I want to know what it feels like to care about something passionately."
02; "To begin... To begin... How to start? I'm hungry. I should get coffee. Coffee would help me think. Maybe I should write something first, then reward myself with coffee. Coffee and a muffin. Okay, so I need to establish the themes. Maybe a banana-nut. That's a good muffin." - THIS IS SO ME WHEN I EDIT, LOL. I LAUGHED SO HARD.
03; "*Charlie Kaufman has asked McKee for advice on his new screenplay in which 'nothing much happens'* ... Nothing happens in the world? Are you out of your fucking mind? People are murdered every day. There's genocide, war, corruption. Every fucking day, somewhere in the world, somebody sacrifices his life to save someone else. Every fucking day, someone, somewhere takes a conscious decision to destroy someone else. People find love, people lose it. For Christ's sake, a child watches her mother beaten to death on the steps of a church. Someone goes hungry. Somebody else betrays his best friend for a woman. If you can't find that stuff in life, then you, my friend, don't know crap about life. And why the FUCK are you wasting my two precious hours with your movie? I don't have any use for it! I don't have any bloody use for it!" OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I ALMOST CRIED. And the delivery was amazing to me.
04; "Point is, what's so wonderful is that every one of these flowers has a specific relationship with the insect that pollinates it. There's a certain orchid look exactly like a certain insect so the insect is drawn to this flower, its double, its soul mate, and wants nothing more than to make love to it. And after the insect flies off, spots another soul-mate flower and makes love to it, thus pollinating it. And neither the flower nor the insect will ever understand the significance of their lovemaking. I mean, how could they know that because of their little dance the world lives? But it does. By simply doing what they're designed to do, something large and magnificent happens." THIS WHOLE SCENE COUPLED WITH THE FOOTAGE THEY PLAYED OVER IT, I WAS SO FUCKING CAPTIVATED AND ENTHRALLED.
05; "There are too many ideas and things and people. Too many directions to go. I was starting to believe the reason it matters to care passionately about something, is that it whittles the world down to a more manageable size." ♥. This is my life.
- ♥ -
→ ALSO. FROM SUNDAY - MINUTE TO WIN IT IS THE BEST GAME SHOW EVAR. I FUCKING DIE AND I WANT TO GO ON IT. I'M SERIOUS. LIKE ALMOST EMAILING-PEOPLE-AND-SENDING-IN-VIDEOS SERIOUS. Amazing. And Celebrity Apprentice, I THINK I FELL IN LOVE WITH CYNDI LAUPER. COULD SHE BE ANY GODDAMN CUTER. Also she seems so interesting and just WEIRD but I mean that in the best way ever. And I have always thought Sharon Osbourne was so fucking awesome and badass and I love her too. Donald Trump's son bugs me. He just looks and carries himself like a total prick.
→ Yesterday, I had a fucking gorgeous day of friendship and laughter and hyperness and rain and making music on soda cans with gentleflower, who is the other half of my soul, all the way over in the Netherlands. It was exactly what I needed and it has been a long time since I've been that just... happy for no real reason and just exhilarated and up, up, up.
→ I didn't have class because we're on ~spring break~. OH last night though I started watching Fat Actress because I am secretly in love with Kirstie Alley. I was going to make a post about it but as a child, I think her and Steve Guttenberg in It Takes Two were the first thing I ever shipped. I came to this realization recently when I rewatched it a couple of months ago, I got to the scene where she's fixing up his hurt head and I got so many strange FEELINGS, YOU GUYS, ABOUT IT. It was like shipping and deja vu and all of these old memories and shit came back and it totally hit me. And oh my god I loved her SO much in that movie when I was little, I wanted to hang out with her character so bad, and when you're young you can't really distinguish between character and actor. But whatever, it was no big. Then I watched Cheers and totally loved her and then I followed her on Twitter and she is so FUNNY and WEIRD and BLUNT and I really, really love her. She seems so fucking fearless to me and she cracks me up bad and I love how she totally owns who she is, even when she thinks she's a "fucking fatass" and disgusting. She doesn't try to cover it up or act like she finds beauty in something she doesn't personally like and I find that so admirable. IDK. BUT ANYWAY. The show is hilarious. "You know Gwen Stefani?" - "*No doubt!"
→ American Idol; lol this season blows so much ass, you guys, I can't even. I like Didi, though. And Bowersox. Lacey bugs the fuck out of me. Everyone else I am indifferent to. I liked Alex Lambert but obviously no one else did. Whatevs. OH. OH. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT SIOBHAN. I LOVE HER TOO. Love her. That's it. None for Gretchen Wieners, bye.
→ Work today was SO. BORING. The highlight of my day was when some guy came in to give a presentation and he flew in the door and was all, "TOP O' THE MORNIN' TO YA!" AND HE HAD GREEN CUPCAKES FOR THE WHOLE OFFICE BECAUSE HE WAS 100% IRISH. IT WAS THE BEST EVER. And also Tracy's shirt, lol, it said, "I'm Irish. Forget the kiss, just buy me a beer." LOLLLLL. And it's just so hilarious because Tracy's pretty quiet, I never would have expected that on her which just made it funnier.