it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

[lissie_pissie]

... of freedom and of pleasure,
nothing ever lasts forever.

We watched that thing on the History Chanel about the predictions for the apocalypse in 2012.

I ended up bawling. It was horrible, I was having so many cruel thoughts and the prospect of this actually being true came crashing down all over me. "It's okay, I'm here," he said, as I clung

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[rossandrachfan]

I've not read into the 2012 theory, but just the other night when I was trying to get to sleep, it hit me too, I don't know if I'm going to be able to put this into words lol but I'll have a go

[lisa_grey]

I had similar thoughts back in 2000,when anyone thought we were all going to die.I was...what,14 back then?But still I felt so bad.And then in 2001,after the Twin Towers,I felt like anyone could die in any moment.I was,and still am,so scared of dying without having done all that I want to do,like marry,have kids,and just try to have an happy life

[elphie84]

Someone just uploaded When I go - Over the Rhine and I've been listening to it while I read this and got so emotional.

It made me think of that scene in Annie Hall, when Woody Allen's kid version is taken to the doctor by his mum. She claims he's very depressed (he's 9 years old) and stopped doing his homework and so the doctor asks him what is wrong and he answers that the universe is expanding and at one point it will break apart so what's the use in doing his homework. The doctor tells him that it will happen in a long time and he should just enjoy himself while he's here.

I think I've always been that kid, I can be a bit paranoid and over-analyse shit (it's a curse). But maybe, maybe the answer is staying in the middle, to be aware of it and try not to make things worse, not ignore it but not to live in fear either. Idek.

Everybody wants to rule the world is one of my all time favourite songs, it always makes me shiver from the first notes ♥

[elphie84]

And I understand it's not 2012 theory that worries you or the apocalypse or whatever, this is just the trigger that made you think of much deeper and personal things that have always been in your head.

[ayalanetzer]

I don't know about you..
but I have been way to close to death in my life to even worry about dying young.
When I was 14 or 15, a bus blew up next to my school and home. I could have been there.
When I was 20, missiles fell all over the place, and I could have easily been hurt.
I am not worried about dying, but rather of not being able to live because of those and other experiences.

[gentleflower]

I don't even know where to start. This has happened to me too, I think. It just happens and I can't really help it. I guess I allow it to? I don't know if everyone can get to this place and even if they could, it's not easy to confront yourself with your deepest thoughts or fears. I don't know if everyone can or wants to do that. There is so much I don't understand, and I try to understand. Things that are out of my hands. Why do bad things happen to beautiful people who do all they can - doing everything for the right reasons. Why do other people kill those people. Why did she die? I feel like in that moment it devestates me to think like this, but there's beauty in it too. If the world would end in 2012, does that mean everything will end? Everything will be gone? We will live as long as the last person remembers them but if everyone who remembers you will be gone with you, what happens then? Nothing, I guess. Nobody wants that to happen. Does it need to happen? Will it happen? CJ ♥. I can only agree with him because I can't