Comments | lissie_pissie: it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

lissie_pissie

it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

Jan 06, 2009 00:52

... of freedom and of pleasure,
nothing ever lasts forever.

We watched that thing on the History Chanel about the predictions for the apocalypse in 2012.

I ended up bawling. It was horrible, I was having so many cruel thoughts and the prospect of this actually being true came crashing down all over me. "It's okay, I'm here," he said, as I clung ( Read more... )

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soulcanhope January 6 2009, 19:56:54 UTC

I've freaked out about this too, and it's not about the world ending, it's about me feeling like I haven't done enough. IDK, I guess I've been feeling a lot like that lately, and being 23 and having my life be over is just too soon. And I'm not ready.
But at the same time, will I ever be ready? Will I ever say to myself, "Okay, enough. I'm done. I've done my part." I hope so. I think that will really be like being at peace with myself. And that's what I want.

You know, I watched this really interesting special last year about what the world would be like 2000 years after the human race dies out, and it made me feel better. For some reason, knowing that the earth would eventually swallow all of the stuff that the human race just stuck there made me feel a lot better. Sometimes it takes having no control to make me feel okay.
/random babbling.

dragonzair January 6 2009, 20:05:14 UTC

To be honest, I don't buy into the whole 2012 thing MAINLY because I DON'T want it to happen. I'm too young, I won't even fucking be done with college by then.

I want to go to Disneyland, I want to watch Broadway shows, I want to watch Cirque du Soleil productions, I want to see all the friends and family I left behind after we moved to Canada, and most of all, I REALLY want to get a shot at working in Disney as an animator.

I want to make people happy, for fuck sake D:

I'm selfish when it comes to stuff like that, so I actually understand what you mean. But I'm not worried. Kinda. I mean...I guess I am afraid that the human race as a whole will probably destroy this world a bit sooner than one would want it to. :/

But yeah. I'm not afraid of dying AFTER I've felt like I've accomplished making people happy with animation.

whenidream January 6 2009, 21:49:45 UTC

I wanted to say something about the thing you said about how even if people are evil, you're innately good and you deserve to live. I'm in full agreement on this, but I also see it like...all humans have the ability to be good, and I won't rest until I've impacted as many as I can. For example, I think that 80% of Americans lack the critical thinking skills that they really need to be intelligent, unbiased people--this is why so many people are influenced by the debates and what biased people say on the news, but don't realize that they should go online and check a reputable source to see if Obama really is a Muslim. I think there's a huge amount of people that just blindly trust sources, or make big choices without evaluating the consequences properly. People just don't get it. But I don't think it's fair that they should be punished for this, whether it's through divine intervention or some other experience. I think the people who do have those skills should take it upon themselves to communicate them with those who don't. Because I ( ... )

ex_bluebonn January 7 2009, 02:37:42 UTC

He told me I already was affecting people. "You're affecting so many fucking people, Alyssa, more people than you even KNOW and that's where you don't give yourself enough credit."

Of course you are. You're affecting so many people just by BEING even if only in small ways. That's the beauty of life - everyone you meet changes you even if you don't know it, and you change them. You add a little something to each other's lives.

And it's normal ... right ... idk to be scared about not wanting to die. I think about it all the time. Death is so FINAL. It's just asdfghjkl; I can't accept that the world will go on being after I'm gone. My biggest fear is that no one will remember. I don't want to live my whole life without anyone caring if I'm here or gone. That's why I want to hold on to the things that belonged to my grandparents and my great grandparents - I don't want to forget them. I don't want anyone else to either.

stop_theworld January 7 2009, 03:33:25 UTC

God, no, I totally sympathize with that. We watched a movie about the Mayans in 10th grade Spanish and they talked all about how every single other astrological sign they had predicted had come true, so why not the apocalypse, and I was terrified. And it faded eventually, but it's still the spookiest thought. That this could all just end, that there could be no more memory, no more learning and talking and thinking and LIVING. And NO, no thank you, I do NOT accept death if it comes in four years. I don't believe there is a pre-decided lifeline for everyone; if I was told I would die in 2012, I WOULD be angry, I WOULD fight, I would most certainly NOT just think, Well, it had to come sometime. I'm sorry, but there is a huge difference between dying at 22 and dying at 100, or even 50. HUGE. I can't understand how anyone would feel otherwise.

He told me I should write my book or make my film and then put it in a rocket and send it to space, with the hope that someone out there would find it, even after we're long gone. Like X-Files ( ... )