... of freedom and of pleasure,
nothing ever lasts forever.
We watched that thing on the History Chanel about the predictions for the apocalypse in 2012.
I ended up bawling. It was horrible, I was having so many cruel thoughts and the prospect of this actually being true came crashing down all over me. "It's okay, I'm here," he said, as I clung
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I am happy with my life but I'm always going to want more because I know there is more. I don't know what it means if one day you stop wanting and there's nothing left to want (I'm not sure I understand people who say they don't want anything else, sure there are moments when I feel like there's nothing else I could ever want but that's in a moment. I guess it's all about moments.) All I know is that I don't ever want to have regrets. Sometimes I literally ask myself if anything is bothering me or if I have a problem I'm not dealing with so I can do something about it, one step at a time. I ask myself if there are little things I have always wanted to do or I want to do but never do because it freaks me our or it upsets me so I can do something about that too, one step at a time. It's the bigger things like wanting to be a mom some day that scare me so, so bad because what if the one thing I want SO bad will never happen. For a reason like that - what if the world will end in 2012 and I will never get that chance? I'm not sure I understand half of what I am saying right now, I don't know what it all means. There's so much to make sense of. So much that's not sure. I don't know, I'm going to take a walk now.
You were just talking with your heart Lissalove, don't ever do anything else. ♥
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