it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

[lissie_pissie]

... of freedom and of pleasure,
nothing ever lasts forever.

We watched that thing on the History Chanel about the predictions for the apocalypse in 2012.

I ended up bawling. It was horrible, I was having so many cruel thoughts and the prospect of this actually being true came crashing down all over me. "It's okay, I'm here," he said, as I clung

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[rossandrachfan]

I've not read into the 2012 theory, but just the other night when I was trying to get to sleep, it hit me too, I don't know if I'm going to be able to put this into words lol but I'll have a go.

what set this off for me is that I have two friends that I knew that died at a young age one was 17 and the other 19/20, and when I think about them I just think about how much they haven't had the chance to do. But just for that moment while it came to me I was thinking what if I got an illness or something and only had months to live or even less, and it did scare me, because for me I don't know whether to believe in the afterlife or not. But for me I can't get my head around there just being nothing, and that is what scares me as well, like whenwas younger i would try and imagine there being nothing lol which was stupid cause you can't :P

eshk the whole thing is just complicated, but I hope you see where i'm coming from because it kinda the same route as you. but becasue i'm not feeling t now, I can't put it into words. You will be making a difference in people's lives that you don't realize, I was watching the sound of music the other day, and just if I could create a film that had a lasting effect on me like that I would love it, it's stuff like that that made me want to do tv production (i'm doing that course at uni) so I hope you do get to create something good. I've often thought about like leaving one of those little time box thingies in my back garden lol with info about like my life and pictures and stuff, cause personally I think it would be so cool to find something like that from way back when and read about their life, of course it might never get dug up but oh well :P

anyway my ramble is over, sorry it's probably a load on nonsense, bt I hope you're feeling better about everything now =]