Last week I found out I have cancer. It's called Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia or CML. According to my new oncologist, if you have to have leukemia it's the best kind to have because most people respond very well to the treatment. I will be on chemotherapy for the rest of my life and as long as the cancer doesn't become acute, it will be a long ( Read more... )

I had a long talk with Daniel yesterday where I spilled the entire story of everything that's been going on for the past year or so. I hadn't told him about any of it because we just didn't talk that much anymore, and when we did I wanted to laugh and joke with him instead of being a Debbie Downer. He initiated the conversation yesterday morning ( Read more... )

I'll be in New York in about a month and a half and I have made it my goal to lose as much weight as possible. The diet is going surprisingly well, it honestly hasn't been as difficult an adjustment as I thought it would be as far as the eating schedule is going. I was already have small snacks here and there fairly regularly, so changing each ( Read more... )

Today Jennifer got promoted to a position at work that I was rejected for late last year. I wanted to apply again, but was discouraged by my supervisor. Things have been weird at work for me lately. This is a really long entry, so I have divided each topic I wanted to include into separate LJ cuts.

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In approximately 8 weeks I will be in New York for 10 days. My goal is to lose as much weight as possible before then. Jon's little brother Timothy has recently lost an amazing amount of weight in around 6 months, I think it's a total of 70 pounds. He looks great, so I asked him yesterday what he did to get so thin so quickly, and he described ( Read more... )

There was a time not so long ago that when I was sitting on the couch being bored out of my mind, much like I am right now, I could be impulsive and make decisions on a whim. Just now, I made a decision I used to make all the time to go see a movie no one else wants to see with me. I looked up the times, found the next showing, and started to get ( Read more... )

People who knew me in my early to mid 20's would be surprised how I turned out in my 30's. I pretty much look like a 30 something woman who cares not at all how others see me, and isn't interested in getting anyone's attention either. Compare this to the girl who 10 years ago had different colored hair once a month, made or modified most of her ( Read more... )

That was the title of a book a man on the bus was reading today. I can easily say it is very far from habit for me to remember to take my meds. I had a calendar reminder that would pop up on my phone at 9:00 every morning and every night reminding me. And when that didn't always work, I set up google calendar to send me a text message at the ( Read more... )

I don't know that anyone who reads my journal will understand this, but I have come to the realization that I need something really painful done to my body. I may be in the minority, but pain has always been a great stress reliever for me, yet I was never into "cutting" myself. Around 10 years ago, I introduced myself to the world of body ( Read more... )

Last night was a surprise birthday party for my best friend and roommate Jon. He's not much of a party thrower, and it was his 30th birthday, so I took it upon myself to make sure he had a good time. Lots of people showed up, much alcohol was consumed, and there was a lot of yelling, laughing, and inappropriate comments being made. My friend ( Read more... )