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Depression is becoming the new black
Yesterday, I saw a article on Buzz Feed called 21 Comics that Capture The Frustration of Depression. I find this interesting as these comics along with numerous other articles and comics I keep seeing and reading never discuss treatment. The only comic that has ever touched on treatment that I have seen is Least I Could Do. I am shocked by this. I ( Read more... ) -
Words? Fuck you, Hamlet.
“The basic tool for the manipulation of reality is the manipulation of words. If you can control the meaning of words, you can control the people who must use them.” - Philip K. Dick ( Read more... ) -
Anxiouty
Feeling pretty anxous about Pi-Con tonight for some reason. Feeling reserved and out of sorts and at the same time a bit panicy. My heart and my head are at the same time at ods with them selves and with each other.
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Surrounded by negativity, not negative
Talking to a friend yesterday, they made a comment that though I am currently surrounded my negativity in the course my life has taken me, it hasn't made my energy negative. I am still a positive individual that is just dealing with a hugely crappy situation.
It is funny, the shit lies I keep hearing, seeing. Parrots.e
EDIT: I hate being depressed -
Just walk into the room, sit down, and start talking.
Well, that was fun, in the most sarcastic sense of the word. Therapy was me spewing my brains out this morning. I had a really bad night last night, mentally and I dumped that shit on the dude this morning. Lots of round and round and coming back to certain issues. I have felt a bit out of sorts and wrung out most of the morning ( Read more... ) -
Homesick
So, I spent the weekend working ong the house. Better to say I spent Saturday working on ghte house. Sunday was a bust, not really that feeling motivated to do more work. A mojor problem I was having on Sunday was homesickness. I was homesick for the life I was packing into boxes, sweeping up, painting over. I was homesick for my life that had been ( Read more... ) -
Happy slide to crash
Dinner last night was really good. I got to introduce albreda to shadesong, yendi, and Judah. That went really well. All seemed to get along. The library that is their house helped, I am sure.
albreda spent the night with me, which was really good for us. No SCA event, no other demands on either of us, no part of me wanting to be somewhere else. Nothing but the two of us. Made ( Read more... ) -
Some thoughts on sca fighting.
Over the past 3 years, I have become a really good fighter. I have great days, I have good days, and sometimes I SUCK! It is just the way it is. It is really funny that the times that I have the best days are the days I don't care. If I am just screwing around, yep, gonna have a great day. The times I have hard or crappy days are the times when I ( Read more... ) -
NRWC, kinda
Had a good weekend. NRWC is a great event and I have always had a great time. I am a little sad that I will not be involved at same the level anymore. I enjoyed the running of that event. It is nice to see all my friends enjoying themselves and having a good time. Jen has always been an awesome Autocrat for that event and I have really like ( Read more... ) -
Walking
I find myself walking a new path, one that I did not intend to be on. One that requires more work than what I had packed for. But, I am walking it, striving forward, making progress. This path, while not the easiest of choices, is the one I choose. Many look at me and say they could never, but who knows what one is capable of until one tries. I ( Read more... )