I hate the way I am. I hate the girl I become when I like someone. I hate the way I get submissive and easy, the way i allow people to hurt me. The girl I am in my head would never allow it. The girl in my head would stand up for herself. I need to manifest that girl ( Read more... )

So tonight was really fun. Its amazing how little people change. but in a good way you know. Tonight I went on a date with this guy I knew in elementary school. I hadn't seen him since the seventh grade and yet we talked naturally. It was really cool. I think we could actually have a great friendship, and maybe more ( Read more... )

So, I never thought I would be so happy to give up on something!! Today I dropped a class for the first time and seriously. I know i will do so much better now ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I need to be on medication. I am incredibly depressed for no apparent reason. I want to go and live in a trailer and get a stupid pay-the-rent kinda job. And just die that way. I swear I just wish, I didn't have to try anymore. I want my life. I swear I never thought this would be how I felt at 20 years old. I had a plan, ( Read more... )

Okay so for some stupid reason I made an OkCupid profile, which is this stupid dating sight. Mostly gotten me no-where. But this guy sent me a messge. And I'm polite so I messaged him back, and his profile seemed kinda cool. But today we talked on IM and he seriously creeps me out. So I'm gonna post our conversation. Tell me what I should do. ( ( Read more... )

Okay so, here goes ( Read more... )

Okay so I know, lik 8 people acually read this so I decided to post here instead of myspace, where like 10 people read it. whatever. So I really do think I'm going to fail, fail college, fail my dream, fail my life. I keep messing up. I was thinking today and wondering if somewhere, in some alternate world there is a version of me, who didn't mess ( Read more... )

So I CANT go there anymore, I need to stay away because I cant take the pain. I love him, I love them, but life is to short to be loving someone you can't have. yes, i need to stay away, its a long drive anyway. I hate this, i hate their crap, i just can't take it anymore ( Read more... )

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )

Ever wonder how the world would be without you? If you never were, where would your friends be? Who would be filling your place ( Read more... )