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Makeover(sth I wrote to my big love D. bout 3 years ago)
I just have to say that I don't want this body any longer, don't wanna show it to other people; n' just a few more couple of things. It's like a gunshot in my neck, like being torn out of all that needless stuff. Yesterday a joined in a conversation, well, a conversation with ma shrink, he was like doing nothing n talking bout all that weird shit I ( Read more... ) -
Hi Mika, as promised the letter to ya dad; got off yesterday
Dear H.,
just a fictional story you don’t have to take seriously. Even so it passed through my mind.
Look here: it gives me a pleasure to inform you that I fell head over heals in love with a boy called Charles. He was a stowaway trying to jump over the railing; and I shout to him: „Hey, what are you doing there? It’s the wrong way, go back!“ In ( Read more... ) -
Whatever betide
Who to hell can make those clouds disappear? Im waiting n waiting for a bright sky with brilliant sunshine and that stuff. After the storm comes the calm? Scarcely. Well, but Im listening to Bob Marley and that matters a great deal. Thereby I feel better. By the way, yesterday Ive talked to my bro Ethan all night through and I've advised him to ( Read more... ) -
I'm big with news folks
Hi everybody ( Read more... ) -
This disagreement will last forever
I don't have to take any shit from anybody and if you're not with me, you're against me, as I would say spontaneously.
In any case I had a pleasant day with some kinda boredom...
Now I'm gonna meet some friends at ones house.
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Why don't you try being kind?
I'm not remotely interested in anybody's life and I didn't have anything much to affect gravity as well. So how to phrase my condolescence? I'm sorry I've forgotten something: I even have none ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I'm totally afraid of my following tests, especially of my final examination. I'm extremely shaking with that, also I did just well in the last few months. I've to mention that I'm sometimes really kinda fucking idiot. Above all I make me feeling sick before an important test and so it feels like a fucking black-out. I don't know what's happening ( Read more... ) -
I just wanna say:
You know what, on the inside I do love life. I just realised that if I felt as sad as I did it just meant that before I was just extremely happy, so really what I have been feeling is a bitter sweet sadness in the last few weeks. It feels good to feel so low in a way, but on the flipside its good to be content again. I need to find what is missing ( Read more... ) -
Just to stay fit
One of my most favorite authors is Nick Hornby. We all know his latest novel "A long way down". I hope you do so. Quite interesting, including this very special kinda British humour. This is one of the things I'm fond of when I read his books. So I'm gonna post a few lines:
Open at page 3(the very first)
"Can I explain why I wanted to jump off ( Read more... ) -
Merry Christmas
It looks like Christmas but you just can't tell It's joyful and triumphant but to me it feels just like Christmas in hell! Only God knows why Jesus Christ had to die, but I don't wanna celebrate this fucking bullshit. It makes me angry being one of these people , just being one of these people, no matter who, 'cause actually nobody is interested ( Read more... )