I just wanna say:
You know what, on the inside I do love life. I just realised that if I felt as sad as I did it just meant that before I was just extremely happy, so really what I have been feeling is a bitter sweet sadness in the last few weeks. It feels good to feel so low in a way, but on the flipside its good to be content again. I need to find what is missing and put it together. I want everything to shine.