Merry Christmas
It looks like Christmas but you just can't tell It's joyful and triumphant but to me it feels just like Christmas in hell! Only God knows why Jesus Christ had to die, but I don't wanna celebrate this fucking bullshit. It makes me angry being one of these people , just being one of these people, no matter who, 'cause actually nobody is interested in you n' your life. You walk past and...nothing. I cannot wish you anything, 'cause I don't believe in anything. I just believe in being killed soon..and so on, and so on, but there's nothing else, so I just wanna give this fucking mail to you, in order to say how damn bored I feel on this very, very special day. Jesus, what a day. People are going to church, praying for themselves to get the success. Anyway,..I wasted my whole god damn fucking night thinking of her. So, it was great, just great seeing her crying because of something..I forgot about. No, no, no..I haven't. It's just a stupid stuff, staying, praying,...I can't see anything positive. A day. Like each other. Just thinking of 'come on and get down with the sickness' would be the worst thing ever. I just wanna close my eyes, seeing nothing else, not thinking any more, just feeling going to hell. This would be fun, great fun to me and my soul. whatever. My last mail. The best of one of the best. The best. Just me. Adieu.