"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort ( Read more... )

My lifecoach asked me to write a poem and publish it so I am:

The Many Stages of Heaven and HellWhen we met it was heaven ( Read more... )

I am REALLY tired so I'm very emotional right now and possibly not making sense but this hit me deeply so I wanted to share -- it's an instance of the universe knowing what I need before I do. While in Washington, D.C. someone gave me a magnet and my first response was, "Great. More stuff. Like I need a magnet." The refrigerator in my sublet is ( Read more... )

About five years ago I spoke to an astrologer and she said by January 2013 I'd be totally reborn. I had no idea what she meant because at the time all I wanted was a job, a boyfriend, and a place to live. So, you know, nothing major. "Totally reborn" meant I'd have everything I wanted and be five years older and wiser ( Read more... )

This is more for me than anyone else but I keep seeing 555 continually. Like everyday. According to angel numbers it means hold onto your hats because a big change is coming. The last time I saw this (around this time last year, actually) it was just before I made the decision to move. I'm definitely moving again so maybe that's it? Wherever I live ( Read more... )

I honestly feel like the worst is behind me. Now that I've decided to do biofeedback to help with my noise sensitivity and I only have FIVE more sleeps (including tonight) until I move I feel so much better. Life isn't so bad. And because it's during the week, the music stops by 10ish. And perhaps this Friday my landlady will be home so it won't be ( Read more... )

Seriously, I'm going nuts. I can't catch a fucking break. I leave for my housesit in Oakland to get away from the goddamn noise of where I live -- and it's a zillion times quieter -- but I'm scared of someone breaking in and lo and behold! Someone breaks in! So then I spend the rest of the time in fear, startling at every little sound and willing ( Read more... )

My dad's best friend's house was broken into tonight. (I'm housesitting.) I wasn't home but I came back to a trashed house. Not too terrible but still drawers obviously gone through and the back door wide open. I'm pretty upset. I feel assaulted in my own home even though it's not my home. I feel like there's nowhere that I can go that I'm safe. I ( Read more... )

Here's a fun fact you may not know about me: whenever I'm about to experience a big change I see spiders. Sometimes in real life, but often in dreams. Last night I dreamt an enormous spider crawled across the pillow next to me, very close to face. It was so vivid I woke up startled with my heart pounding and turned on the light. Thank God there ( Read more... )

Ay yay yay. Landlady hasn't been home this week, she's been in Hayward, thus the kiddies are running wild. Daughter was playing music at 11:45 at night. Went downstairs to tell her to put headphones on. Dog came at me again, luckily no biting. Heart is pounding a million miles a minute. Feel like I'm in a raw state of terror and panic. Will ( Read more... )