I just want to save the following email conversation. These words are wonderful. This is in response to my recent subject line that read "Jessi let it slip through her fingers like sand..." "it" of course was Luke and my relationship with Luke. Time is still healing my wound. Chris doesn't know the full story but this was his response ( Read more... )

What can I say ( Read more... )

In the past few weeks I have experienced alot as a single-again-girl. Good experiences, expanding experiences. Experiences that I never had my first round at being single ( Read more... )

Just when I start to think Im ok I have a random breakdown ( Read more... )

I am a horrible person ( Read more... )

I don't understand ( Read more... )

Tonight I went through the stuff Luke left. Sifting through it ( Read more... )

I feel petrified right now. Luke will be home soon and I am going to talk to him about things. Im scared because I don't feel any hope left on his side. I feel no love left for me. I guess I am really just scared of the truth. The truth of the matter is that Luke and I would have to start from scratch. I feel very little toward him anymore too! He ( Read more... )

Here I am, back in Portland. It feels natural for me to be back here in my home town ( Read more... )

This has been an extremely stressful time. I've been worried about Lucas finding a job, and about how everything will end here. Im nervous about this coming month, it will be a difficult month because everything will start coming together and ending. Good things will come from this month but it will be stressful just the same. On top of Lucas ( Read more... )