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april 15th
yesterady my arm did alright. in the morning during p.t. i had a little discomfort in my center back, but mostly it was fine. i started experiencing pain later on in the day, around 3:30 and it lasted until about 6. i think this was mainly due to standing and writing a lot for one of my classes. the pain was at about a 6 since i would not have ( Read more... ) -
exhaustion
i am so tired. i miss seamus so much. lately hes been drifting away from me, more than that- pushing me away harshly. i am a fool to not have seen this coming. but i am going to be honest and say that i love him and i never thought it would work out this way. i thought we just needed some time, i wouldve wanted to try and get back together ( Read more... ) -
coke bottle glasses
sometime i wonder if i will ever see the world the way others see me. i get the feeling that the way im experiening life, the way i perceive things, or make things out to be, is not the way they are. i realize that we all have our own personal experiences, and that i should just accept mine. but often times, i reject my own. admonishing myself to ( Read more... ) -
over it all
im afraid ill never be free ( Read more... ) -
bravery
i am not afraid of anything ANYMORE ( Read more... ) -
fog all along the horizon
i feel trapped. i feel liek i can't get away from my work. just when i thought i'd have sometime to reboot and truck thru the rest of the week, my boss calls me on my fucking cell phone to bitch at me.am i being paid off the clock- no. it's bullshit and it sucks me into a bad mentallity that i try not to take home with me ( Read more... ) -
taking inventory
ive recently learned that one way to help yourself is to take inventory of your fears and then meditate afterward. i have decided to respond to my fears with the answers i truly feel are right. sorry for the typos. my lj will get more liegible once theres a better method on here for spell check ( Read more... ) -
goddamn 2 buck chuck
i'm going to have to apologize for the entry i posted last night. i was quite inebriated. nevertheless- i think it's important to face my feelings head on, and however prompted by drunkenness they were- i was still experiencing them. so i'm sorry if my entries from time to time seem whiny or even "unintelligible", but its better that i do it on lj ( Read more... ) -
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ahhhhhh lj ( Read more... )