i always feel bad that i go days, weeks, months at a time without updating this journal.

i miss livejournal. i need to catch up on everything... tumblr, livejournal, kbites. everything.

i promise i will be back one day. 

for some reason, i decided i would reread my old posts.
not a good idea. i hate reading what i write in the past. i always sound so immature.

i need to catch up on my 101 in 1001 days list. soo behind.

i spent two hours talking to vineet, telling him every story i could think of about every boy who has ever hurt me in the past. he was shocked and agrees that i've been screwed over but he also made me realize that a lot of what happened is my fault too. how i could have learned from the past so many times but just chose to never change. he assures ( Read more... )

it has been a long time since i have posted on LJ.
i'm sorry i have neglected you.maybe i will return. maybe not. we'll see.miss you terribly.

where i have been spending all of my time: http://whatbeauty.tumblr.com

life is weird ( Read more... )

i have the weirdest dreams ever. i wake up feeling very...empty. i dunno.

band camp has started. i don't know how i feel about it. i don't really like many of the people this year.

asjhd;jaskdhfasd i don't want to go back to school.

sigh. 

lately, i don't know why, but i have been rather clingy to my mom. i always run downstairs a couple of times a night to spend a few minutes lying on her bed while she is doing stuff on her laptop. i don't know whether i'm lonely or sentimental ( Read more... )

today, i woke up and realized -- i have a recurring motif of disgusting BATHROOMS in my dreams.

i know. it's gross. but i was so curious that i had to look up what the meaning of that is. because i always felt so disgusted by these bathrooms in my dreams but.... well, it's human nature, and i had to use something.

my first search on yahoo provided ( Read more... )

i don't update LJ as much as i should.

i don't know what i've been doing with my life this summer. it's passed by so quickly and i've definitely lost control of the reins. time is flying by and it's just whisking me along. i need to get ahold of my life. the next half year is going to be the most important times of my life [applying for college]. my ( Read more... )

if dagny taggart cannot love francisco d'anconia, then i will love him for her.

too bad he is not a real person.