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i don't update LJ as much as i should.
i don't know what i've been doing with my life this summer. it's passed by so quickly and i've definitely lost control of the reins. time is flying by and it's just whisking me along. i need to get ahold of my life. the next half year is going to be the most important times of my life [applying for college]. my mom was right -- why did i work so hard in 9th and 10th grade and kind of 11th, just to give it all up now? i can't i can't i can't. all those sleepless nights, they have to be worth something, right? i don't know how to change anymore though. i don't remember what it was like to be that hardworking because i have slacked off so much since then.
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i started writing this last night. then i restarted my computer and thought the draft of the entry wasn't saved [however, it obviously was since it's up there]. i couldn't even remember what i was talking about. ... does this mean i'm absent-minded or that this topic isn't important to me? b/c it is. it has to be. basically the rest of my life depends on this. ... right?
i talked to him for the first time today after a few weeks of not talking. it was weird. it was just like nothing had happened and we were back to talking every day. but it was also different. because we didn't talk for as long as we usually do. but you know what? IT DON'T MEAN A THING TO ME. ahahaha. ... i dunno.
oh well. on to happier things!
i got my braces off. and i am one happy girl today.
i don't know what i've been doing with my life this summer. it's passed by so quickly and i've definitely lost control of the reins. time is flying by and it's just whisking me along. i need to get ahold of my life. the next half year is going to be the most important times of my life [applying for college]. my mom was right -- why did i work so hard in 9th and 10th grade and kind of 11th, just to give it all up now? i can't i can't i can't. all those sleepless nights, they have to be worth something, right? i don't know how to change anymore though. i don't remember what it was like to be that hardworking because i have slacked off so much since then.
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i started writing this last night. then i restarted my computer and thought the draft of the entry wasn't saved [however, it obviously was since it's up there]. i couldn't even remember what i was talking about. ... does this mean i'm absent-minded or that this topic isn't important to me? b/c it is. it has to be. basically the rest of my life depends on this. ... right?
i talked to him for the first time today after a few weeks of not talking. it was weird. it was just like nothing had happened and we were back to talking every day. but it was also different. because we didn't talk for as long as we usually do. but you know what? IT DON'T MEAN A THING TO ME. ahahaha. ... i dunno.
oh well. on to happier things!
i got my braces off. and i am one happy girl today.