I can not remember the last time that I was so bored. Boredom and me are a bad thing. The longer I am bored... I seem to get depressed. I'm not depressed now by any means... but I know from the past that if I sit around for too long I get depressed. And really it isn't that much fun. Hmmm.. so what is going on? Nothing... LOL... I think my ( Read more... )

Okay I will update quickly. Everything is going pretty well for me. School is going pretty good. My observation on Tuesday went well. I had all Satisfactory's. Which was really nice. Now just to get them a little higher. I am teaching by myself now. It's actually not that hard. I'm getting used to it. And I'm not as tired anymore. I just ( Read more... )

I seriously probably am the only person who really uses livejournal anymore but it's okay. I seriously still like it. Anyways... I had WAY too much caff today. I will not be able to fall asleep tonight. Of coarse I think I am addicted to caff now. It's the lack of sleep that has me craving it in the morning, and at night when I just want to ( Read more... )

OH man. I'm not feeling so great this morning. My stomach is a little upset. Oh well. Life goes on. So what do I say here? I have been sooo busy. I have taken on a lot recently. But strangely it is helping. I have also realized exactly what was getting me so depressed. Now if I can just stop doing it! LOL... man those damn addictions. ( Read more... )

I can't even reply to that comment. Honestly... I don't even want to. Well anyways... today is a much better day. My emotions are playing this crazy game with me, and really it isn't much fun. It's the new medications I know, but still it just isn't a whole lot of fun. But anyways... I teach math starting today. Yahoo. I'm actually excited ( Read more... )

The mornings are so incredibly hard for me. I don't understand why. I wake up in plenty of time, I get dressed and ready in plenty of time, but... its something. More like I just want to sit down and cry every morning I wake up. I'm alone you know. I almost hope wish and pray that someone would be there with me when I wake up... even though I ( Read more... )

I just decided that I am going home this weekend. I cant take this anymore. I'm so alone.

I am so tired. Who knew I would be required to do so much stuff. And I haven't even started teaching yet. Don't get me wrong.. I'm happy to do all of it. I think I am just run down. Tonight I was trying to talk online, write a lesson plan, and watch TV at the same time... and I don't think I actually managed any of the three. LOL.. I am so ( Read more... )

Talked to Jorge tonight. Eh...... ANyways... I'm patiently (well not really) waiting for YOU KNOW WHO to come online. Of coarse after I wait all night it probably won't happen. anyways... I am waiting. I know tha tyou guys are dying to find out his name. But you never will. Well one day when we proclaim our love for each ohter... lol but ( Read more... )

So... when I get bored I miss Jeff. What do I do? Do I call him? Do I write him an email? Do I look at old pictures of us? The truth is I research abusive relationships. Why? I really don't know. I guess it reminds me of why I did what I did and all the feelings I felt at the time? I dunno... it seems though that the more I read the more I ( Read more... )