k first off. yesterday. bad. could not get in contact with girl thats doing a project with me, david, and the other girl that i barely know whose name is amy. Amy gone on cruise. Emily not able to be contacted even through long streneous search that included trying to find out her girlfriends number because i have no idea how to spell emily's last ( Read more... )

I have no idea when nething is going to happen but it will one day. so many things that i am waiting for it once but its ok because i am content. I have to do my history essays tommorow morning and a project and i don't care because i am content. I don't need nething more until i finish it but when i finish it i will be waiting for the next step. I ( Read more... )

I had a good weekend. It rocked. Now its the week. I am such a moron. I am constantly getting less sleep than i should. Its wearing me out. Its my fault and I know it. It makes me feel like im in my own little world and i am by myself. I can't concentrate on my friends or schoolwork. I become apathetic and let people do shit to me if they want just ( Read more... )

I am an idiot. I have been trying to become a better person by becoming a worse person. I have been trying to loose my part of me that cares what others think and what I think about others but it just doesn't work. My friend kind of told me that. He was like Craig whats wrong. nothing. craig something is wrong and you know it what is it. and ya its ( Read more... )

Hey incase your wondering. life sucks. I'm not happy. I have everything going for me that doesn't really matter. I have a job. k thats good. I'm doing really good in school. k??? so what. I have a couple true friends. thats john, ross, christy, and laura. Everyone else is just someone to waste time with. I wish I had more free time to have fun. I ( Read more... )

Ever get one of those really bad feelings in the pit of your stomach thats not from spending 3 days without going to the bathroom. I have one right now. I like to call it "Craig you are a complete idiot and need to take alot of pills and OD on whatever you can find and just not care anymore" Thats not going to happen but thats how i feel. I was ( Read more... )

I had to relearn the same lesson again today. I had to learn again that it doesnt matter what people think again even though it slapped me in the face monday. I got hit with a guy telling me that if i want to talk to girls i have to not give a fuck about what they say or do to me. just dont care. If they give you shit walk away its no biggy theres ( Read more... )

Looking back over the summer. Something happened that made me change. not my personality just my self esteem and confidence. I've been scared to death so long that I never thought to answer my question to myself which was why was I so scared. Over the summer, i thought about it and realized something through experience. I talked to a bunch of ( Read more... )

I went to work from 11-4 and then i came home. After a while i went to church and at church i found out why i havent gone to east baptist on wednessday night in a while. I had this babbling bitch which her name will not be mentioned but you will know that she is outspoken and is not our usual youth teacher. Russel is our usual. well the babbling ( Read more... )

Today I realized something. I'm horny and I have no where to put it except the internet and thats sad because its hard to quit. In my opinion i'm attractive but not hot and i'm not ugly. I guess you could say I'm cute or ok. I don't care because i want a girl to mess with but i don't have one. and its pissing me off because all of my friends have a ( Read more... )