the pit of my stomach
Ever get one of those really bad feelings in the pit of your stomach thats not from spending 3 days without going to the bathroom. I have one right now. I like to call it "Craig you are a complete idiot and need to take alot of pills and OD on whatever you can find and just not care anymore" Thats not going to happen but thats how i feel. I was supposed to meet this girl today. I was supposed to meet her last week to but that didnt work because she wasnt coming over to marcie's because i was at work. Now she is coming over and i was off work but i thought to myself when Kathy called and asked me to go into work today from 4 to 9. I said ok because in the back of my head I was wondering if that girl even existed did she really want to see me today. She probably is going to cancel her plans to come over anyway today so I should just forget about her. I was completely wrong and about the time i said i could work she said she could come over at about the same time that I work. I wish i could have talked to the girl before. I probably won't get to now. I feel like i just completely screwed over lauren's and marcie's day. Maybe its because i did. Its just one of life's ironic adventures because stuff like this normally doesn't work out. I'm gonna stop by marcie's anyway. I feel bad. I want a hug but don't feel like I deserve a handshake.