last semester, last year even i had this feeling of belonging like i haven't really felt before ever ever. maybe when i was four and all i needed was my mommy. its strange because before then it didnt feel like a void, it felt like my shit was maybe a little amiss but i didnt attribute it to the presence or absence of others at all. jeez. i ( Read more... )

ive been spending a lot of time alone in recent weeks. maybe its too much time but perhaps it isnt. i've tentatively decided to take classes part time this semester to try and get the kinks worked out of my brain and my feet steadily on the ground. id ont really know what that means and i could care less about when i graduate. it is not, ( Read more... )

i have these things that seem like epiphanies but that isnt the word for it when all of a sudden all at once i am in complete and utter disbelief at how lucky i am and how loved my friends and family makes me feel and and how much love i have on my insides and how absurdly awesome my house is (MOST OF THE TIME, OKAY?) and i feel so good about ( Read more... )

its funny how little things travel through these conduits of memory and make you remmeber these little things ( Read more... )

am i ....................... unmotivated????????

no nope.

i have this sudden and painful fascination with california and mexico city. thanks, dc. h8 u.

i dont want to admit to myself that i harbor these really immature feelings, that im telling myself that i am so strong and stubborn that i never want to see your face or speak your name again. i fear that this just reveals how effing vulnerable i've made myself. i dont know how to not regret that, i dont know about feeling regret ever but i dont ( Read more... )

i just realised that i havent been taking dance-breaks. BIG MISTAKE i need to stay on top of that shit.

i have been listening to a lot of the same music lately (the blow, xiu xiu, lightening bolt, animal collective, chicks on speed, cat power, elliott smith etc, yall know what i like oh and orchid ?!) and i need more. plz suggest thx.

ps. this is very important and all suggestions shall be taken seriously kthxbye.

pps. love u.

HOLY SHIT, SKEWL ( Read more... )