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last semester, last year even i had this feeling of belonging like i haven't really felt before ever ever. maybe when i was four and all i needed was my mommy. its strange because before then it didnt feel like a void, it felt like my shit was maybe a little amiss but i didnt attribute it to the presence or absence of others at all. jeez. i dont like projecting my responsibility for my self and my mood onto other people, i dont want anyone to have that power but me but i know that is not how things work but im going to tell myself that it is for a while. i am glad i let people into my life and im sorry they're not here but i wish their absence wasnt a huge fucking reminder that my shit is far from togeths.
luv u.
luv u.