I thought about taking the Gambino route and writing certain feelings on sticky notes and posting it on my social web feed.....

Then I realized, nobody will even care....

So I wrote them in a book....

I have two pages already....

With all of the different ways to communicate with a person, why do people still have a problem with lack of communication? If we can't talk on the phone, text me. If we can't use Skype, use Glide or some other video message sending application. If you have good news, share it. Don't you dare use the excuse of "we don't really talk much" because ( Read more... )

As I call the members of my family to wish them Merry Christmas, I can hear the sadness and loneliness in everyone's voices. We're all affected by our family's most major loss to date. I wish I knew what to say or do to help them, but I'm feeling it worst of all. This year alone, I've cried myself through Mother's Day, my mothers birthday, my ( Read more... )

"I've been alone in my hate for so long...."
- Huntress

"...that it feels good to tell the truth."
- Arrow

So many questions about that dream last night ( Read more... )

So I started watching a Koren show entitled "Pretty Man" tonight... and of course, the main characters mother dies from Cancer in the first episode. Laying in a hospital bed, with an oxygen mask over her face... Just like my mother... (sigh)

I often wonder if any of the choices I've ever made were the right ones at all...
The college I chose, the women I've loved, the friends I've made...
I feel an internal change happening and it honestly scares me...
What if I change too much, and the people I know and love now begin to leave again...

There has to be some sort of miracle coming my way, because this year has been THE most emotionally draining, mentally devastating year of my life. I can literally feel my soul just growing weary to the point that it's almost given up. Looking at these pictures, I used to be a happy, imaginative child. What happened? Why has the world destroyed my ( Read more... )

so much to say... and nowhere to say it... these lives of mine cannot bleed into each other...

I hate feeling like I'm going to explode....

I hate it more that it feels like it's for no apparent reason....

I hate how I cry when i start to express how I feel....

Because more times than not it's unjustified....