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Just Another Suku (Spinoff of Jaejoong's Just Another Girl)
*translations from: https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/rom-eng-lyrics-kim-jaejoong-just-another-girl/
*song: Kim Jaejoong - Just Another Girl
Time after time
Everything is my fault
And don’t ask me why
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Who am I?
All my life I've been trying to build a self. Trying to build an "I" for myself. But it's never worked. Or that's because every time I try to build a self, it always gets scrapped. I'm always trying to think of something for me. But who is me? Who am I really? Do I even have a self? Maybe I do, but I just can't seem to reach "me" on my own. Maybe I ( Read more... ) -
Waifus list.
- Sherlock Holmes
- Kazuya Kamenashi (KAT-TUN)
- Jaejoong Kim (JYJ)
- Gaius / Arst Outway (Tales of Xillia 2)
- Jude Mathis (Tales of Xillia 1/2)
- Ludger Will Kresnik (Tales of Xillia 2)
- Shiroe / Kei Shirogane (Log Horizon)
- Al Saiduq (Devil Survivor 2)
- Fumi Kanno (Devil Survivor 2)
- Nobuyuki Sanada (Samurai Warriors 4)
- Reyson (Fire Emblem 9/10)
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Uncertainty.
I don't know what to do. I still feel as though I should just leave everything and everyone behind. I'm no good to anyone. I'm just going to continue to be burden to everyone around me. I'm quite useless. I don't know anything of the world. I talk about dreams and goals and the desire to obtain a PhD in neuroscience, but what is the practicality of ( Read more... ) -
Commitment.
I started to realize or think that I might still have commitment issues. Or the commitment phobia. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'm going to be unfaithful or anything like that. My heart is completely with my penguin and suku. And I'm happy with him and all. But it's like... It started with feeling lethargic and listless for the past few ( Read more... ) -
Thoughts.
Sometimes I just want to give up everything. It happens when I feel so frustratingly upset and angry. Maybe when my feelings and/or fears of abandonment resurface. But that's not all the time. By giving up everything, I don't mean suicide or anything like that. I just want to forfeit everything... maybe begin my life anew elsewhere. But of course, ( Read more... ) -
A relief from my own mind.
Why can't I ever get a relief from my own mind? For almost two weeks, or perhaps to be exact, nine days, I've started to feel better because of my new medication. Less anxious, less fearful, less worried. And then it strikes again on Wednesday! It didn't last as long, perhaps because I was seeing a new therapist then so my mind was led elsewhere ( Read more... ) -
Feelings.
Hmm... My current relationship. It's the first time I've felt a sense of belonging, a sense of safety, and of happiness when I'm with him. It feels so right, though I've always felt that way. I could imagine the future, and I want that to be real. And it will be. I feel I can be myself with ease. And there are a lot more things. I get my anxiety ( Read more... ) -
The past.
Every time I access Serebii Forums, my mind is flooded with past memories of when I was a staff member and all the friends I had then. It'd be wise if I stopped doing that, if only to prevent my depression from dipping further. But I just... All those things... All the years I had... I have to admit, I have regrets about having just thrown ( Read more... ) -
The past.
When I think about my past romantic relationships, I realized I was never really truly in love with them. I thought I was and I expressed myself in such a way, like telling them "I love you" and stuff like that. But if I really think about it, it was never "true love." I never truly loved them. Maybe I deluded myself into thinking I did, thinking ( Read more... )