the only thing i THINK i have under wraps is probation because everyone seems to be telling me that when your 18 they just stop calling you ( Read more... )

boy to stubborn to except help.  i care too much, fuck the consoled and the consoler, i know! but i care for him. i broke his heart, and it still hurts me. so all i can do is try to help. he doesnt want to hear the occult knowledge i have of god that has helped me. so i cover up the occultness and give him teaching of a strong will and discipline. ( Read more... )

ive never felt so confused by a relationship before. its usually just anger or jealousy, or both. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO.  let it blow over? thats the only option i have for myself. but i feel i may go crazy.

no one likes me when im crazy. especially me.

if not its fuckin WRONG

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maybe nothing matters ( Read more... )

but ya know... i dont think the abstract i was doing was helping my skills as an artist. thats why i did that pyramids piece for james. i STILL want to redo it. probally will. there is too much black. maybe not. even so, there neeeds to be more red and orange in the sky. i sky could be better too. ANYWAYS. i think i want to paint an atomic bomb. it ( Read more... )

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i really should have researched better. i feel i am really screwed. and i bet i go to court with my jaw wired shut. actually i hope i do, so they feel bad for me. anyways, i just read on high times that diluting doesnt work, (even though thats not really what i've been doing but what its been showing up)... they SAY you can pass by drinking a shit ( Read more... )

a man on the daily show doesnt believe in that movie the inconvenient truth. neither do i. i think he has alot of facts wrong. some right.. most wrong. this guy believes it is god. he has a bible point of view but it makes sense. i am not sure we can explain scientifically what causes things like.... for instance the foot of snow we got 2 or so ( Read more... )

im not completely recovered but its basically over and done. this surgery, what difference does it make if i had it done to begin with. they said my jaw will probally move back a small percentage. i just dont want complications further on down the line from it. i know my sister does... but i think they did some other stuff too ( Read more... )