i have NEVER been so happy...

Apr 12, 2004 12:16

last month started a totally new point in my life ( Read more... )

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darkbluestars April 12 2004, 13:45:20 UTC
i'm glad your happy rikki, i'm just sorry none of us could help you feel that way.

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guiltlesseyes April 12 2004, 21:07:26 UTC
hey my little sex pot.

you know i love you more then anything.

you are one of my fav people for sure.

the way i was feeling about other people not caring is so not aimed towards you at all. i dont want you to even feel that way.

i just realized that the person that i have called my best friend for the past few years isnt much of a friend at all. she cares more about herself then she ever did for me.

i dont want you to feel that you dont make me happy. the only time i came out of the house during those months after vegas, is when you were down. i love seeing you and spending time with you. and i am so very sorry if i hurt you by what i wrote. you will always be my sex pot! xoxo.

and dont worry you are so on the wedding list. i cant get married without my sex pot. so dont make plans for next year yet!

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rockstar03178 April 12 2004, 16:50:50 UTC
well kiddo i must say after 4 years of seeing you go through hell over one thing or another it's truly great to see you happy. congratulations.

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calm_my_heart April 13 2004, 10:29:06 UTC
ok whoaaaa. i cant believe you actually had the nerve to write that. give me a fucking break rikki. we were ALWAYS there for you. there was countless times when i listened to your problems. you swear no one liked you & we only put up with you cause you were uhnets friend. thats such a cop out. & how can you honestly say you NOW know what it feels like to have a best friend? thats so fucked up. you were the one who dropped everyone else, including uhnet. we tried countless times to get a hold of you. uhnet was nothing but an amazing friend to you. it was YOU who didnt return phone calls or ims or emails. so stop placing blame on someone else & look at yourself for once. it really pisses me off that you can go to that party on friday & be super nice to everyone & then write something like this. how old are you? how about you start acting your age. thank you and have a nice day.<3

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guiltlesseyes April 13 2004, 11:29:45 UTC
my post was to one person. the one who said that she was my best friend. not the group. i love all the girls, and the time we spent together and i miss all of them. i know that i stopped hanging around after the accident. but the truth was i felt so guilty for all of it that i couldnt face everybody. guilt is a horrible thing, i knew how much everybody was suffering and all the money issues and fights that came about. so i felt so bad about it all. i couldnt even face everybody ( ... )

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calm_my_heart April 13 2004, 12:01:06 UTC
ok first let me clear something up here. when i said.."you swear we just put up with you cause you were uhnets friend...i meant that i heard you said that and i was saying that we didnt do that. we truely loved you. and its funny you say uhnet wasnt the type of friend she claimed to be when in fact YOU werent the type of friend you claimed to be. you dropped everyone when things got tough. i wasnt even in the accident and you still dropped me. i can understand you were feeling guilt..but thats no reson to push people out of your life. im just hurt by all of this. but you have your reasons for what you do and it wont change anything.

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guiltlesseyes April 13 2004, 12:30:39 UTC
i never really thought that you guys were my friends just because i was uhnets friend. i know that i had friendships with each of you ( ... )

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answer_me_this April 15 2004, 05:28:44 UTC
You seem to get rid of your girl-friends as fast as you go through boys, and You claim (over and over) that people stab you in the back. Have you ever taken a good look at yourself and how you act and relate with others? I know that the people that uhnet is great friends with have been friends for a LONG time. How long have you had your closest friends? (sorry for starting this rant with pettiness ( ... )

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guiltlesseyes April 19 2004, 12:25:56 UTC
when did i ever say that i did not love my friends, when did i ever say i did not love uhnet ( ... )

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yourluckystars April 20 2004, 00:25:46 UTC
honestly rikki, you really should be a little more selective about what you say about me. if you want to say bad things about me, that’s fine, but don't say things that can easily be proven to be false. you say that you're hurt that i let anthony talk shit on you. well, i have deadaim logs that prove otherwise. i have proof of how i tried to contact you (both deadaim logs & actual people) & when you say that i avoided you, perhaps you're mixing me up with yourself. you said that retreating back away from people is your coping mechanism & that is fine, but the moment that you avoided us & then turned around & said that i was the one doing the avoiding, then that's something i have to respond to ( ... )

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second part, because i have a lot to say. yourluckystars April 20 2004, 00:26:18 UTC
good luck going through life like that, & honestly rikki, good luck with your boyfriend, mandie & your new friends. i really mean that, no sarcasm. i just hope that mandie doesn't end up the way your girlfriends in high school did, the way blayne & amanda did, & the way i & the rest of the girls did. i can see that mandie cares about you like i did. i know from personal experience that not everyone easily accepts someone with a background of broken friendships. i can tell mandie is a good person with a pure heart. no one ever said you never loved me, but what people have been saying is that you talk about mandie the way you talked about me, & who's to say that she is different? i hope she is though, because by a certain age, you really should have stabilized relationships with people, not creating high school drama & doing things like talking badly about people & then being nice to their faces, or saying you're one way & then bragging about something that proves you’re the exact opposite ( ... )

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