my post was to one person. the one who said that she was my best friend. not the group. i love all the girls, and the time we spent together and i miss all of them. i know that i stopped hanging around after the accident. but the truth was i felt so guilty for all of it that i couldnt face everybody. guilt is a horrible thing, i knew how much everybody was suffering and all the money issues and fights that came about. so i felt so bad about it all. i couldnt even face everybody. but the fact is uhnet wasnt the friend she claimed to be. funny how she says that she made all of those attempts to call me. geez i must contact verzion since i never really missed any calls. her excuse was that i was never online anymore so she couldnt talk to me. and then we hung out after forever and she ditched me most of the night. i feel like i was nothing more then a ride for her. but im not going to start a list of reasons why i dont feel like she is such an amazing friend, that is between her and i. but its nice to know that you guys all "put up with me" because i was her friend. im sorry that my post upset you, but it was just something that i needed to get out.
ok first let me clear something up here. when i said.."you swear we just put up with you cause you were uhnets friend...i meant that i heard you said that and i was saying that we didnt do that. we truely loved you. and its funny you say uhnet wasnt the type of friend she claimed to be when in fact YOU werent the type of friend you claimed to be. you dropped everyone when things got tough. i wasnt even in the accident and you still dropped me. i can understand you were feeling guilt..but thats no reson to push people out of your life. im just hurt by all of this. but you have your reasons for what you do and it wont change anything.
i never really thought that you guys were my friends just because i was uhnets friend. i know that i had friendships with each of you. and i know you were not in the accident, but unfortunately one of my biggest flaws is that when things get tough, i shut down. i block out the world around me. i guess its a stupid defense that i have because of the past. but thats how i deal with things. as far as my comment it was towards one person, not the group. and that is my honest opinion. i dont feel like she was a very good friend to me, but she can act like a great friend when she needs too. i dont want to start any battles. sweetie i do love you as a friend, and do love spending time with you. after all i wouldnt move to canada and take it over with just anybody. i understand you stand up for your friends, thats one of the reasons i love you so much. but i dont feel like i am talking shit on anybody. uhnet has really hurt my feelings, and i do feel stabbed in the back and used. and i have expressed that to her, and things didnt change. so i dont feel like it was ever really a "best friend" kinda relationship. but i hope that this hasnt changed anything between us, because i do enjoy spending time with you and have finally recovered from all the emotional stuff from the accident. and i do honestly love you to death. besides we dont want to have to go to court to fight over jesse, do we?
but the fact is uhnet wasnt the friend she claimed to be. funny how she says that she made all of those attempts to call me. geez i must contact verzion since i never really missed any calls. her excuse was that i was never online anymore so she couldnt talk to me. and then we hung out after forever and she ditched me most of the night. i feel like i was nothing more then a ride for her.
but im not going to start a list of reasons why i dont feel like she is such an amazing friend, that is between her and i. but its nice to know that you guys all "put up with me" because i was her friend.
im sorry that my post upset you, but it was just something that i needed to get out.
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and i know you were not in the accident, but unfortunately one of my biggest flaws is that when things get tough, i shut down. i block out the world around me. i guess its a stupid defense that i have because of the past. but thats how i deal with things.
as far as my comment it was towards one person, not the group. and that is my honest opinion. i dont feel like she was a very good friend to me, but she can act like a great friend when she needs too.
i dont want to start any battles. sweetie i do love you as a friend, and do love spending time with you. after all i wouldnt move to canada and take it over with just anybody.
i understand you stand up for your friends, thats one of the reasons i love you so much.
but i dont feel like i am talking shit on anybody. uhnet has really hurt my feelings, and i do feel stabbed in the back and used. and i have expressed that to her, and things didnt change. so i dont feel like it was ever really a "best friend" kinda relationship.
but i hope that this hasnt changed anything between us, because i do enjoy spending time with you and have finally recovered from all the emotional stuff from the accident. and i do honestly love you to death. besides we dont want to have to go to court to fight over jesse, do we?
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