Oh sigh... Lj I always come to you when I'm feelin lowliest. Mostly because not many people read you still and it feels a little journal like. My sister had he second child today. A beautiful little Ginger haired darling named Ariel. I love her. I was so overcome with emotion when I held her that I burst into tears. I was crying my eyes out. My ( Read more... )

I'm really doing my best to drink more water, eat a lot healthier than I ever have, be athletic. Do I in turn need to be this sore? Also please let this just be back pain and not kidney pain. I would also like it if I would not have allergic reactions to sportscreme and if I could get some sleep instead of being awake from said burning arms of fire ( Read more... )

( 5:41 am. Another smoking tirade to add to the numerous. This time I am awoken because I am in pain and of course I am anxious. I went to work wednesday night and woke up in this pain Thursday and it hasn't gone away. I'm supposed to do makeup today again at the star wars convention. I actually wasn't originally. I was the Friday girl. But then as we packed up to leave Miss Fisher in the middle of fan photos sent over her personal assistant to ask if my friend Arelys and I would be doing hair and makeup the next day and when I said no, he says, )

I really wish these feelings would go away. I just wish that I could feel normal. All things considered I've been doing my best and pretty damn good. I could really use to not keep having little panic attacks though. I'm almost angry. I know it's selfish but god dammit. They should not have left. It was too early for all three of them. Gram and ( Read more... )

Sometimes you just have to laugh between crying at the fucking irony of it all. Three days ago I accidentally killed one of my kitties because she flew under the truck when I came home. I did not see here until she had already done it. I had no chance to stop. It was fucking horrific. Shittiest feeling ever. I would have normally thought why is ( Read more... )

Please turn off. Stop being a jerk, I am totally tired. Also acid indigestion please go away. Damn you midnight enchiladas. I just wanna go to sleep.

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HAHAHAHAHA.... Keep dreaming.

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Ow ow ow ow ow owieeeee. I'm pretty sure this is from boxing today ( yesterday to most) I haven't boxed in almost a year and I forgot that you have to freaking breathe for one and two you have to let the impact from your fist roll through your arm like a whip and out through the punch instead of letting
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Once again ugh why do you tempt me with cherry coca cola grrr. Anyways..... I wish people weren't such complete ingrate shitbags. I can't even fucking stand it. Makes me wanna live in a mountain cave.

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