I haven't cried yet... I cried at the funeral a lot, but I haven't really cried yet. Of all my friends that have died, Adam was my closest. I knew Adam much more then I knew Bob, and honestly I loved Ben, but we were just friends. Adam was my friend, the kind of friend that you call, you e-mail, we even texted a few times--- and now he is gone ( Read more... )

trying to get back into shape..
This morning (AFTERNOONISH)

130 crunches - good but a far cry from the 1000 I used to do, but I'm older and out of shape since I had to quit dance :(

10 push-ups - good for me

Short stretch

and then rest... out of breath

Damn this was easier when I was 18 :-P

Someday one of my dreams is to become at least mostly green. I know I could never be entirely organic, but I find I gravitate toward organic things more often then not. I just dream of being organic. I find the food better, and the cloths are nicer however, the prices are usually to much for my limited budget. Perhaps someday I will be able to have ( Read more... )

For starters who ever said New Years Day was also national hangover day was so right. I had forgotten why I stopped drinking hard liquor... I remembered when I was puking the next morning. But all in all I rang in the New Year with my closest friends ( Rachel, Pete, Ben and the crew) and the love of my life-- so that was awesome! For the first time ( Read more... )

Writing a research paper about blogging- just makes me want to blog ( Read more... )

I Love my sisters<3 We kicked but last night girls and I hope we continue to do so!!! Go Theta!!!

I've decided to spot laying around feeling lonely and surround myself with work and people I know care about me... it may seem like a small change, but it has made me really feel appreciated. I'm going to try and work on me some more and not care or worry about all of the people that don't like me. I'm a work in progress still but these days I feel ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking a lot about the future recently and what I want for myself, which actually makes me think even more of the past. I know what my dreams are- they are to get my Masters from UEA in Film Studies with Archiving- then I want to live in London for at least one year. I also hope to one day marry Sean, but first I want to go to Paris ( Read more... )

I'm o excited for school to start---> OCM starts Monday! =)
**Glitter Kisses**

So I realized that I am happier then I've been in years- and I mean like 10 years. And yet in being this happy and having everything I want, apart from a serious like of money and a debt problem, I feel like less of a person. When I hurt all the time and poored myself into my poetry and journals I somehow felt more real. Like perhaps I felt more, ( Read more... )