i like watching this complete stranger talk. konstantdina's friend from prague, is staying with us for a week. when she speaks - i'm with her on every word and thought, and it's kind of fun, because if you know me...i'm awkward beyond hope when it comes to having random conversations with people. I dont know what it is about certain people that ( Read more... )

i've always been teased for being the emo one. For the music I enjoy, the things I write, the way I respond to things that affect my heart. yet tonight i'm sitting here wondering when I'm gonna be what everyone expects me to be - when am i going to feel what I expect myself to feel. My indifference has taken me by surprise ( Read more... )

33 years of existing can get the best of you.

Last night, Dina and I slouched silent on the couch - occasional grumbles and groans escaped us. Miserable. Tuesday night, there's no where to go... we've watched too many movies, complained about the layer of goodness that sits on our tummy's and love handles and said everything there is to say ( Read more... )

I always imagined a new years kiss the way we brought in '07. Loud music, and crowds of people, a count down... part of me holds on to moments passing by- hoping it stays this way hand in hand...the other anticipates the possibilities and then time stops and everything around you disappears but her and there's nothing else to do but be together ( Read more... )

she makes me want to be a better person without telling me I need to be.

today, I am happy. I'm not sure if this will last, but I'll embrace it for all it's worth today.

i'm sittin here at 3 in the morning asking myself how my all nighter study session ended up with me straddling catherine on stage at gladstones hotel singing lyed zepplin's dyer maker in front of a bunch of lebians....

je ne sais pas.

there are things about you that I just can't fucking stand.

There are moments I expect to be grabbed fiercly - in the name of natural desire ( Read more... )

i went out to the gaystone tonight because it's wednesday. I saw many people, and I guess you could say I was in a good mood because I left my ego at home. Apparently I'm the only one who left it at home ( Read more... )