there might as well have been a wet paint sign all over that one cuz  i ran right up and jumped into it to make sure it was a bad idea. sometimes i think if i explained all of the 25 similtanious thoughts to go through my head at once some of the redonculous things i do would be more sense to someone, maybe they would just think i'm crazy. but ( Read more... )

i stopped having dreams YEARS ago ( Read more... )

another weekend, another week...

i have SO much to do this week, its kinda stupid but it'll def keep me busy, and i have 3 things due this week, 2 tests monday, and a book thing for some crazy 200pg book next friday that i'm not going to be able to start reading for untill monday. its okay i'm so anti everyone at school right now basically, they all ( Read more... )

as it works out i hate living here now, it's too quiet. i miss home a lot. i've been home 2 out of the past 12 months ( Read more... )

what a crazy fucking weekend ( Read more... )

...and all the lights that lead the way blinding. AND THERE'S SO MANY THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU....but i don't know how.

Help me if you can, i'm feeling down
And i do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.

whatever comes after confused...i don't like it. i thought it to death. it's the end of an era. it's the end of the world as we know it. what the fuck is going on here? i have no fucking clue.

everything feels very grey. i have no idea what's the right thing or the wrong thing to do and the days are going by really fast. it's fucking miserable.

okay....so the in general freaking out has to do with a lot of things...i feel like i need to put an explination everywhere before everyone just decideds i'm loosing my mind ( Read more... )

seriously, i just thought of this. okay, thats a lie, but it was just like whoa. when we graduated high school...did you ever see yourself where you're sitting right now? 4 years ago did you ever see yourself where you are now? 4 years ago i was just hanging out in foxboro with dave blais and dating chris whitley. and now im in italy. whhhhhhhhhhat ( Read more... )

so its crazy...the high points here are so high, and the low points are so low. it like fucking crazy. either a night goes AMAZINGLY or it sucks ass...theres never any inbetween. everything is black and white. at home everything is gray...and i like it better that way. its always a good time, sometimes AMAZING, but rarely wicked sucky. i like it. ( Read more... )