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i was listening to nirvana.

this weekend i got drunk and bought the first season of MASH on dvd.

i watched cruel intentions and orgasmed about 8 million times because ryan phillipe is hot, and when i drink, my sex drive increases by about 8 million.
also, i went through every single possible emotion, and rediscovered my insanity. as well as my insanity, i also rediscovered how ( Read more... )

on friday night i sat in my room and read a numerology textbook.
i read that i,
* am restless and impatient
* am erratic
* scatter myself and my energy
*  have difficulty with anything standard or rigid
* overindulge in eating, sensuality, drinking and drugs
* miss the big picture because of excitement generated by new interests.
* i have a karmic debt to ( Read more... )

it is way weird that whenever i hear his voice i just want to grab the next person that walks past and have lots and lots of sex.
strange what a hot voice can do to you...

i'm in lust.
fuck.

i need my pills.
everything just hit me tonight. i'd pushed everything away for so long and now everything hurts ten times worse. i used to have those pills to comfort me. like everything was perfect when i had them.
now it's not.
all i do is push things to the back of my mind and distract myself from everything, like they told me, and it's all come ( Read more... )

drip, drip.
insanity leaks into every minute.

last night laura and i ventured by train to narara. we missed our stop because nobody informed us that we had to sit in a certain carriage to avoid opening the doors to nothingness. we got off at niagara park and walked to narara.
lots of alcohol was consumed on the way, making the load we had to carry significantly lighter. however, at one stage ( Read more... )

im not at school today because i cant really open my mouth.
my tongue is the size of a grapefruit and is swollen, bloody and kinda bruised. I didn't even know a tongue could bruise.
tonight i have to work.
i am lispy and in pain.
roar.

i have an expander.
i attempted to eat food and it failed. losing weight will be so much easier when i find it pretty much impossible to eat anything.

after going to the orthodontist i had to go to the hospital. through no fault of my own, i swallowed my key. the ortho was fiddling around and wanted me to talk so i tried and then i started choking. ( Read more... )